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You should talk to a doctor about how your feeling. Maybe consider continuing your birth control until you've emotionally accepted everything and then talk to someone about getting off of it or onto a new one. I hear you. I'm meeting with a therapist today because I do feel traumatized and stuck by all this. My Dr. gave me a script for Ativan which is helping with the panic feelings that keep coming up. I'm not sure I want to go off birth control just yet — I'll ask my new GYN in May about it.

Hey there. If you don't mind me asking, do you know how you got ghsv1? Through oral or genital sex? Either or both I'm assuming.

Hey there. Thanks in advance for reading and I'm grateful for the information on this site. I was diagnosed with ghsv1 about three weeks ago. It was pretty devastating. I originally came in to the Dr. with a vaginal tear. At first my Dr. didn't suspect herpes, but she did tests for the other common STDs at the time + put me on an antibiotic for the tearing + swollen lymph nodes. A few days later, I came in with sores on my vulva and around my anus. She did the swab tests that confirmed I have hsv1 (hsv2 was negative). She gave me a script for Valtrex and the antiviral ointment. The next day I started my period, which was early. Having my initial outbreak + my period + going through the drama with the person who gave this to me was sort of awful. I didn't die though. Things started to clear up and I felt pretty good. Not good enough to have sex, but I felt like I could probably even cope with this terrible thing and resign myself to a life of celibacy or join a convent or something. I felt good enough for exercise anyway and tried to get out and be active — which felt good. I didn't see any sores left, but I did have some lingering itchiness around my anus. Then yesterday I woke up with swelling and tenderness in my lymph nodes (in my groin). I emailed my dr. and she said that they can remain swollen for awhile. I started to feel unbalanced, grumpy, run-down. I didn't have much of an appetite. This morning, there was the tingling and I saw a sore on my vulva. :( I called my Dr. and she just refilled the Valtrex. Earlier today I noticed I was spotting/bleeding also. :( In a panic called the Dr. again and she said I'm just stressed out and to "monitor it" and let them know if things change. I felt like she just blew me off and I got really upset and made an appointment at at OB/GYN place instead of my family doctor who has been doing my gynecological care for the last five years. They can't see me till Mid-May though and I have to go fill out all the records releases first. Ugh. So my questions: 1. Is this a second outbreak just weeks after my first — or is it just one really long outbreak that's coming in waves? 2. Can an outbreak cause a early period? Obviously I was stressed/nervous wreck, so maybe that's what caused the early period... but what about this bleeding now? I've never had two periods in a single month. 3. Last night, before I saw an actual sore, I had a little emotional meltdown — like PMS I guess. I have some other PMS-like symptoms (cramping a bit). Are my outbreaks triggered by my emotional meltdowns, or are my emotional meltdowns triggered by my outbreaks? Because of all the drama of the last month and the fact that I'm not sleeping with anyone currently, I've been sporadic with my birth control also, which can probably account for some of the hormonal changes I'd guess (but to these extremes???). I'm also really struggling with coping mechanisms (a big gulp of red wine or two fingers of whiskey were my go-to for stress... I super suck at self-care (I'm now suspecting that's making things worse). I just tried a cup of green tea, but look, it's not the same. :( I just don't know who to go to for answers or whether what I'm experiencing with the period drama is normal and my doctor probably thinks I'm just a hypochondriac. Until I can see a real gynecologist, does anyone have any advice? Even anecdotes?