justcme

my story- i fell in love hard and fast, trusted the guy, was told we were going to get married. he got me a ring and everything! i paid for the venue, we were planning then. i got herpes, i didnt cheat he was the only one i was with. he denied giving it to me, i then found out he was cheating on me. i left him then also found out i was pregnant. i kept the child i love him hes an awesome little boy. i want to date again but i feel like i come with so many problems and baggage. its hard enough to get a guy to talk to you when you have a ki, no one wants that drama (not that i have any its just me and my kiddo!) i have a awesome job i make like 55k/yr i take care of myself and son i own my own car, house, i dont need a man in my life but oh do i want one. i get some guys who are cool with a kid, then i tell them about herpes and they jet. it sucks i understand why, nobody wants herpes, not that its that bad but its gotten a horrible reputation, what sucks is i got mine from someone elses infidelity. i just dont know what to do its hard to not be depressed to not feel like im alone. the only thing that keeps me from basically drinking constantly and spiraling is my son. ive never been a person who had to deal with rejection and now this rejection is a kick in the gut every time.