Hawhaw

Thank you for all the support.

A few months ago I asked my husband of seven years for a divorce. The marriage had been failing for a number of years simply because we were just not right for each other. I had been planning a trip for some of my extended family members and myself around the time I requested for a divorce. My husband wanted to tag along so I allowed him to. At the time I thought my heart was completely closed. My focus was entirely on trying to get out of a bad marriage with the least amount of damage. While on vaccation, I met an amazing man. Our instant connection almost felt outer worldly. We just connected on every level. We talked for hours and got to know each other enough to want to keep talking further despite the fact that I lived in GA and he lived in CA. After the vaccation I met him in CA and we had our first intimate encounter. 3 weeks later he came to visit in GA and we had our second intimate encounter. We had mind blowing sex like all the time for 4 days straight. He went back to CA and 3 weeks later he informed me that he had noticed some sores beginning to form around his penis and he felt like we should both get tested. I had been tested a year before this and nothing came back however I was OK with getting tested again. He had been in only one other relationship in the past 2 years after getting out of a long term relationship which is when he last got tested. After our test results came back, he was positive for HSV and I was negative. He was infected by an ex coworker who he was sexual with twice. And she was fully aware and did not disclose this to him! Now he is going through so much mentally and he says that he loves me and he wants to end it. He does not want to infect me. For me, I love him more than anything. When I look at him I see the person in him I don't see a disease or skin condition. I do not want our relationship to end. I have done some research and I understand the risks of infection. To me it is very easy. So when I weigh the possibility of him infecting me, me living with H And me living a life without him it's a no brainer. People search their entire lives for a life partner we have found ourselves in each other. I cannot even begin to accurately express how deeply in love we are or our feelings for each other. And now this diagnosis. How do we deal with this. He feels like he cannot be intimate with me because he does not want to have someone he loves go through it. I also want him to realize that I am going into this knowing full and well what the risks are and it's not that I am doing him a favor. It is about him and not the virus. I see so many discussions and groups supporting individuals with the condition facing rejection. But how about dealing with reverse rejection? Any advice on managing a discordant relationship or any feedback otherwise would be greatly appreciated.