lolonicole

Hi, I'm 18 and was diagnosed with HSV-2 yesterday. I'm not upset or angry about it at all, just kind of surprised. I acknowledge that it's something a lot of people live with and can be very manageable. My biggest frustration is that my first outbreak is atrocious. I'm a freshman in college and it has prevented me from going to classes both yesterday and all of today because my right labia is swollen about 3 times the normal size and I can't walk without pain. Especially if I attempt to wear anything other than extremely loose sweats, and it still hurts so badly that I am limping horribly. I can't take baths because I live in the dorms, and have two roommates so my time in the bathroom is already limited. I'm obviously keeping my diagnosis a secret from them because they are both very conservative young women and would be terrified if I told them. I am on a prescribed pill that I take 3 times a day as well as numbing ointment. This helps, but really only when I'm laying down. Walking is still excruciating. I wasn't stressed out by my diagnosis, but missing classes because I can't walk across campus has me stressed. I'm also concerned about my boyfriend. My gyno believes that I contracted HSV-2 from his HSV-1 (cold sores) when he performed oral sex on me last week. I never even knew he got cold sores, so when I called to tell him that I had contracted GH, he was absolutely devastated. In fact, he's coping far worse than I am. He feels absolutely awful and keeps saying it's "his fault" even though it's nobody's fault. He has struggled majorly with depression in the past and I can tell that this has him depressed. How long do you think my first outbreak will last without me being able to have any personal time or ability to bathe? I can't continue to miss classes. And does anyone have any idea what I can say to my boyfriend to make him feel better? I've tried everything. Thanks so much.