dancingqueen

@ash2018 thank you so much! I didn't realize how much I needed a response from someone who had been recently diagnosed as well. I started an antiviral the same day and was told by day 3/4 I would start to be feeling better. I think that everyday I feel a little bit better and I can measure that in small ways. I made up a little mantra, "everyday gets better and tomorrow will be even better" (so corny but it's helped when I'm feeling low). I put that on repeat in my head when I'm feeling especially down and it's helped emotionally a bit. What I'm struggling the most with is when and how this was contracted. My boyfriend has had no signs or symptoms but I know that doesn't rule him out as being a carrier. We've been together for quite a while in a committed and faithful relationship so I have no doubts. I just wish I could get specific answers and a specific timeframe to know. If anything, that's what is eating me up the most, and the feeling that I should alienate myself from people around me. I really appreciate your comment to my initial post and even in my worst moments I'm hopeful It gets better.

Hi There, I was very recently diagnosed (this morning) and am here looking for any support and advice on how to deal with the discomfort of a first outbreak. I am currently feeling an overwhelming mix of emotions between sad, disgusted, disappointed, frustrated, pained, and just plain upset. Those emotions coupled with the discomfort I'm currently feeling have sent me into a negative headspace. While I have a great support system (boyfriend, mom, best friend) I just am feeling low. I'm also feeling extreme discomfort from these sores that feel like a mine field and would love any tips on how to ease the discomfort. I took a like warm bath with tea tree oil and didn't feel and ounce of difference. While I currently feel at my worst, I've been reading through the discussion board and am hopeful that one day I can also find the strength to see the light at the end of the tunnel.