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@TeaWithTheQueen Well chat it out on here don't feel like you are alone!

@TeaWithTheQueen I fully understand you it is the worst and the fact that you are going through it alone is making it 100 x harder! Pick up the phone give a friend a call let them know whats going on and you just need someone to just be there. I was the same I had to wait a couple of weeks but have they given you tablets? They will help so much. If you are still in pain down below sleep with an ice pack to relieve it a little. Regarding the man, I get it I felt the same but when I told him he was pretty cool with it but we were more like friends who had just been banging each other for a year. If he did give it to you and doesn't want you after... I'm not going to lie to you the rejection is going to hurt like hell but you will over come it and realise that he was not worth it in the end. I do feel like will I ever find someone who can love me with this but at this moment it should be about focusing on you and getting better. Worry about boys once you feel more together with life and all cleared up. You are not suffering alone (even though right now you feel like it is only you in the world who has it) so many others have it and also so many others could have it much worst that you have! Wipe those tears hunny. I promise you it won't happen over night or not even a month but it is going to get better. Keep positive and look after yourself xxxx

I haven't written on here since I first found out I had herpes and I just re read what I put 4 months ago and it actually makes me feel much better that I am no longer in that dark place anymore. I wouldn't say I am 100% but I am defiantly better than when I found out I got herpes. I am writing this today so that this post can help someone like many of the posts I have read giving information and advice. The main thing I always saw when I was reading was people saying it will get better in time and I used to think 1. They clearly never had this as bad I'm feeling and 2. I don't want to be reading it gets better when I feel like my whole world has crashed! Well guys.... it will get better in time but I am not going to lie you will have the anger, the tears and most probably the suicidal thoughts. One night, only a couple of weeks ago I spent about 3 hours crying at my dressing table thinking I could just get into my car and drive into a wall. I had an outbreak for over 4 weeks. Next morning I woke up and was like what am I playing at this is not me so I got myself to the clinic and I am now on suppressive therapy until mid January so we will see how that works out seeing as I have tried nearly everything suggested on google!!! I am 22 and love going out drinking, eating mc d and as it is now December I have not set foot in a gym for a while, I by no means have the healthiest lifestyle which apparently doesn't help herpes but even though I have outbreaks they are not painful like my first outbreak so I still live my life regardless! Here is what I have tried out and how it worked for me: Talking it through: Only handful of people know I have herpes; my 6 bestfriends, my mum and my cousin but each one of those people have really helped me and I am so grateful to have people like them in my life and they are probably sick of me forever talking about my noonie but they have been nothing but patient, loving and supportive and I couldn't thank them enough. You don't have to tell the world you have herpes but having people to talk to it about has really helped me. Tea tree - Loved it as it completely dries out the sores. Great if you have sores sort of on the area you would get waxed but not for around the hole area or inside. Very painful to apply even watered down!! It also dries out the skin and then this can cause more irritation. I now wash with epiderm cream as it cleans the area but also moisturises feel like its made a real difference. Coconut oil - I have sores inside so I applied this and it has definatly made the redness and a few sores gone. I have been using this every night for a week or so now so I don't know the long term effects but with the results I've already seen I will definitely be carrying it on! Vitamins - So when I first got diagnosed I went out and bought every vitamin that apparently helps with herpes but then they made me feel sick all day so I stopped then when I got this new outbreak I started reading more stuff about your immune system being effected so I thought I'll take the ones to help that so now I take daily (ish) 2000mg of Vitamin C, 600mg of Reshi Mushroom and L-Lystine. Now I have been taking all of these for about a month and even though I don't know if they are helping the herpes but its mid December and I haven't caught that horrible cold everyone else has so they must be helping my immune system which in the long run is good for not getting an outbreak. Garlic - Now I as I am writing this I have a piece of garlic in between my bum cheeks pressing onto my sores as this is now the only place I have left with sores (that may have been a bit too much info but hey ho!) It burned like a MF when I first pressed it but after about 5 mins it has subsided. This is meant to dry out and heal up the sores which I have had around my bum for nearly a month and half. I am only trying this because I have not had sex in forever... Desperate times really! This brings me to my final point... herpes has forced me to be celibacy waaaah! Now I was never a hoe who wanted to go out and bang everyone but now that I don't have a choice in the matter I seem to want it so so so sooooo much more so let's hope this bloody garlic works people because I refuse to have sex with anyone at any chance of having a open sore however small it is. The boy that may not or may have given this to me happily had unprotected sex with me after I told him I had it... so he may already have it... either way its his choice if he gets it but I just do not think his adult enough that if he does get it he will be careful because I would feel terrible if I gave it to him and then he went off with another girl and she caught it because it was the worst thing that happened to me but I am now dealing and coping as well as I can with it. I really hope this reaches out to at least one person and helps them out. Just remember if you are ever in a really bad place talk to your friends, mum (if you choose to tell her) or a doctor because just airing it out can help and doctors can give you more medicine to help. On a final note I know that right now it feels really horrendous but push through it and be as strong as you can and don't let herpes own you. You can get through this! :)

So I told the boy I have been seeing on and off for the last year that the last time we had sex that I came up with herpes and honestly he was so sweet and lovely about it. I had gone to the clinic yesterday just to sort of see if everything was okay as I got my first outbreak a month ago now and the nurse told me I looked all cleared up and if I felt better in myself then I can have sex and we did but he didn't want to wear a condom no matter how many times I asked. I split again whilst having sex and I feel like I have come up with spots again and it has not even been 24 hours. Could this be another outbreak? Should I text him to see if he is okay? I don't want to make an issue of it and make him grossed out but now I'm just worrying so much that his going to get it and I don't want him to hate me.

UPDATE: Just got back from the Clinic and I have type 1. My doctor thinks that I have had the Virus in me for a while and because I got so sore and split from having sex that it gave the opportunity for the virus to come out. @Jessieandjuice she said I can go back to gym now I'm cleared up and feeling better so I reckon give it a few days before you go back. Regarding shaving and waxing she said be careful and that in the long run laser would be the best option xx

@HikingGirl thats great news!

@Jessieandjuice I would definitely wait until your OB has cleared up before going to the gym. I think I may go back tomorrow and just take it easy. Ill let you know how it goes. I can't believe it took them so much back and forth to diagnose you, must've been so painful. If you still have sores definitely get some tea tree oil and mix with water and apply to the sores every 3 hours - its a miracle! Along with the antibiotics and using that most of my outer sores are completely gone in 48 hours. I also had the day off work and slept sooooo much my body definitely needed to recover. I am going back to the Clinic today to get my results they are ovbs going to be positive but I will ask the doctors what she recommends shaving wise and if lazer is a good step forward or not. Yes I read that somewhere aswell. I normally have sunbeds but I'm very worried to have one if it causes an outbreak. Feel like anything you want to do to make yourself feel better causes a bloody outbreak!!! Thank you so much. 2 days ago I was crying that I couldn't go but I have now seen the light and so will you! You seem much more positive than I did when I started on day one! Maybe try get some vitamin C aswell I'm currently taking 800mg of it a day. Don't know if thats too much but never heard someone OD on vitamin C lol!! We will be okay! x

Also the major major issue... how an earth do I tell the boy????

Hi, I am 22 and I am on day 6 after find out I have GH. I can tell you that it has been a roller coaster of a week! Brace yourself for a long post and I have a few questions at the end! I'll start off with some background on how I got my first outbreak... I have been having sex with the same guy this year and it's only been a few times and every time I had a check up after and was negative on everything. I don't want a boyfriend but I wanted to just gain a bit of sexual experience because I'd literally had sex not even 10 times in my whole life before him. I feel comfortable with him and we have a lot of fun. So we had a party with our friends on the Saturday I knew I was seeing him that night we had been texting all week. I obviously made sure I shaved to prep myself for the big event but I made sure I was smooth as anything (this is error 1). The party was good but we finally left and I was super excited as last time we had sex was May - a girls got needs!! We went back to his and had great sex for nearly 2 hours non stop (error 2) and without any lube (error 3). By the time we had finished I was swollen and in pain but also felt so fab and I know I don't have a lot to compare to but it was the best sex of my life! I went to the toilet and saw a little blood but didn't think too much of it. We then had sex a few more times when we woke up (error 4). So here is what happened next... Monday - Wednesday: still sore and swollen and a bit dry so I go buy some creams to apply. I also came on my period on Tuesday. Wednesday it hurt when I wee and I'm back and forth to the toilet - having experienced a UTI before I knew what it was so went to the doctors to get some antibiotics. Thursday: I go out for dinner with work and I just don't feel okay. I am home before 9pm this is unheard of for me so I think I must be ill! When I get in I finally pluck the courage to look down below. It looked horrible I was in such shock and sent a picture to my cousin (we are ridiculously close!) and we both agree something is not right. This was my worst night I couldn't sleep because of the shooting pains and the itching was driving me crazy I just ended up laying in the dark crying. I had about 3 hours sleep. Friday: I woke up and got ready but could barely walk. I sat on the train fighting back the tears. When I got into work my colleague asked me how I was and I just broke down and said I needed to go to the clinic. I get to the clinic still red eyed and sniffling was like I need to go the clinic. I an barely sit in the waiting room because of the pain. Finally 2 hours later I am seen by a doctor who is actually really nice. She takes me to get checked out and then that's when she tells me she is certain it is herpes. I just got that stomach drop feeling and felt like I was going to throw up then I burst into tears. The next 20 mins is spent of her trying to tell me it will be okay and me dry heaving and trying to stop crying. She sends me on my way with 400mg of aciclovir for 3 times a day for 3 days and telling me salt water wash. I was a mess for the rest of the day. I didn't go back to work but went to a friends who ran me and bath and made me food and then I slept the whole afternoon with a ice pack between my legs. I told my mum when I got home and she was really understanding even though she didn't really know what herpes was at all. Saturday: I salt water washed about 4 times and god did it hurt! I then applied epriderm ointment thinking this would help - it doesn't so for those suffering please don't use creams! I was taking paracetamol every 4 hours and felt exhausted and constantly had an ice pack on. I also started taking vitamin C on this day. Sunday: I spent the day googling everything I could possibly google about herpes. I found out that it's better to dry them out then use creams so by the evening I would; salt water wash, blow dry my lady bits with the hair dryer then apply baby powder. This helped the itching. Monday: I felt better in the morning after my little drying out technique and went to work still unable to sit down comfortably. It got worst throughout the day. I ran out of my tablets today and needed more but unable to get back to the clinic I got an emergency doctors app and he prescribed me 200mg aciclovir 5 times a day for 5 days. I went to a friends house for dinner and was in so much pain I had to leave. I cried in the car on the way home upset that herpes has got in the way of my social life and this is when I would say I got to my darkest point.... Tuesday: I woke up on autopilot and got ready for work. I was exhausted I had hardly slept the night before and was crying before 8am to my mum saying I would rather be dead than have this. I cried on the train. I cried when I got into work. I cried in holland and Barrett. Finally I went home and cried again to my mum and feel asleep. My friends called to see if I was okay and cried to them. I was so low I thought it was never going to end. I was going to lose my friends, I was going to feel like this forever and one of the most upsetting things is that I have Ibiza booked and if I felt like this there was no way I could go! I bought from H&B after reading of home remadies: reshi mushroom supplements, cod liver oil and tea tree oil (the holy grail!!!!!!) Wednesday: I took this day off work and spent the day in bed and having regular salt water washes and applying tea tree oil. This is the best thing ever. Within 24 hours my spots and cuts have gone down. Stings a little bit but not like the pain I've been experiencing. Also I have eaten some broccoli today as that appaz helps... who knows!!! Thursday: So this brings me too today day 6 and I can tell you I'm feeling a lot more normal. I'm back at work I can sit down without any pain and I don't feel as tired. Most of the first spots and cuts are clearing up however I got another spot that come up yesterday - ugh! - but I've iced and put tea tree on it all yesterday and today so hopefully it won't turn nasty like before! I have to go back to the clinic to get my results tomorrow but I'm pretty sure I have herpes. Although that was the end of the world last week I am finally starting to feel better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel!!! My tips that I have learnt in 6 days: - take the pills - Take paracetamol - Use tea tree oil - Keep the area dry - Try have a couple days off work and sleep with no underwear on - Sleep with an ice pack - Take vitamin C So my questions (potentially trivial): 1. The main one... What an earth am I going to do about Ibiza!?!!? I've read that partying and stress makes you have an outbreak. I planned on no eating or sleeping for the whole 4 days... now I'm going to have to worry about getting an outbreak 2. Shaving or waxing? I can't go to Ibiza with a bush so what shall I do? I was already getting lazer hair removal at the end of year - should I still go ahead with this? 3. When can I go back to the gym? Will it irritate me? Sorry for the long winded post but just wanted to share my experience!! Mollie x