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Ps....I was also paranoid/concerned that if I contracted this, what if I contracted HIV so, I got tested yesterday. I'm extremely nervous.

Thank you so much HikingGirl! I actually ended up telling my parents and one brother. They are all very supportive and are committed to learning more. The process of just telling them made me feel so much better! I'm coming out of my haze a little, trying to deal with this first OB and am going to try and live a healthier life. I truly appreciate your help, comfort and guidance!

I'm a 42 yo only parent (husband died 2.5 years ago) to a 4 year old little girl. Have been in a 4 month relationship (first since my husband) and just found out in Saturday that I have GH. Still waiting for test confirmation but doctor said he's pretty positive that it is. Started me on Valtex right away. I also walked away with a UTI and bacterial infection. I'm in some very intense pain, especially when I urinate. I cry all the time, feel disgusted with myself, overwhelmed with fear and emotions and am feeling so alone even though my BF is very supportive. He has had no signs or symptoms of the disease but, I know that doesn't mean anything. The doctor also said that I could've gotten it long ago and it's remained dormant until now. I take Humira for Psoriatic Arthritis which lowers your immune system. He seems to feel this could have been a contributing factor of this OB. I just can't get past all the terrible thoughts. How am I going to get past this? I can't concentrate on anything. I'm paranoid of unintentionally somehow infecting my daughter. I feel like such an awful person for being so careless. Where do I go from here?...