DepressedToNoEnd

@DepressedToNoEnd did the symptoms stop once you stopped stressing it? I really am trying so hard to get to that point, but am having a terrible time with it. I need to figure out how to get it off my kind. So that it isn’t the only thing I think about. Every time I use the bathroom. Every time I get dressed. Every shower I take. Even with every step I take I feel like people know. I need to stop the stress and depression from it I totally feel you. Staying busy definitely helps. Exercise and quite frankly stopping searching on the internet helps because as I said the level of misinformation is massive with the exception of places like this site and Westover Heights/Terri Warren. Today I felt tingling that comes and goes in a very random way but if I have to guess it happens when you get stressed. That is one of the very few things about this, that you learn about your body a whole lot more out of primal instincts of survival. I have conclude thus far -although it’s still a rather short sample I’d say- that it is anxiety. My biggest fear is to pass HSV-1 to my family that is something that once it gets to my head it’s hard to let go. This time of the year it has hit me especially hard, watching them so happy waiting for the holidays only for me to ruin everything, that I’m having a very hard time not to forgive myself, even if this was an older infection vs a new one.

So I’m told that is what I have. I should clarify that I’ve never actually had an outbreak from it. I have the symptoms, prodome is what I keep seeing everyone call it. I itch like fn crazy!! Lately it’s been feeling like more of a burning sensation or something similar. But I still don’t have blisters or boils or anything like that. I’m sure it’s all in my head because of all the reading I’ve done on HSV and I know that’s what is “suppose to happen”. I did know that cold sores were Herpes. I’ve never had one of those either, thankfully! However my ex husband always has them. I wouldn’t kiss him or anything when he’d have them. Now I’ve learned of shedding and that has me freaked out, because is that possibly how I got this. And he would never know. Idk... too much going through my mind and I can’t get it to stop! I am on the same boat. I did not anticipate getting diagnosed with HSV-1 and felt my life was over. It wasn't after I tortured myself with Google and searches that began feeling tingling but no sores, nothing, probably anxiety, because at the level of stress I reached if I have not had an outbreak it's short of a miracle, then again the science is so inexact about this and worse the level of misinformation out there. I really appreciate Adrial and the community here in general for providing much needed support. My index was relatively high from my IgG which would suggest I had this for some time, regardless that was very little consolation, at least no outbreaks yet. Chances could be I had an small outbreak whenever I was exposed to it, which could range from many years ago, and it has remained dormant.