Blwnaway

This is by far the most shocked I have ever been. I feel like damaged goods, I feel dirty as fuck !!! I'm still trying to figure out how this happened. Last yrI go to the Dr because of nagging irritation, my Dr Wasn't avail so I see the NP. When she mentioned hsv 2 I felt like she had to be mistaken. I take care of Myself get tested not careless when having sex partners I mean c'mon what the fuck??!!! So I say run a blood Test as this is happening I'm calling my BF for the last 3 yrs to inform him of what was just explained to me. We cried together . He was like I fucking love you No matter what !!! Fast forward couple weeks I get The call my IgG is negative !!! Relief is what I felt !!! Fast forward this year same problem irritation !!! Go back, my Dr was out for the week I see another NP and we talk she examines me does a pcr culture I tell her I'm confident it isn't hsv 2 !!! Pcr come back Positive ......my world spins I tell her let's do blood tes Because I've never had any of the symptoms ever other Than this irritation and small bump ... 1 bump!!! I go and Get my blood drawn and now it shows I'm positive for hsv 2 I feel like my dreams of having the family with the man I'm Madly in love with is over and the intense beautiful sex Life we had had come to an end !!!! He's getting teste d After this holiday is over!!! Is it possible that he was a scarier And passed it on to me? Is it possible that before meeting him I fucked up and slept with an negligent individual and passed it To him? Trying to remain cool but on the inside I'm spazzing !! Would it even matter if I take that antiviral ? Does the antiviral Even make a difference? FML