Amiable_Flower

About 2 months ago during the semester the lesions popped up on my coochie and upon going to the doctor she took one look at them and said I most likely have herpes. Over the following weeks the amount of tears and self loathing I felt was unfathomable but I somewhat fake to terms with it and even told my boyfriend who fully supports and loves me. Now I’m home for the holidays and these growths have popped up that, after countless hours of Google mania, look like genital warts. I feel like I can’t take this. I know I need to go to the doctor and get properly tested but with limited funds and strict parents I’m gonna have to wait until I’m back in varsity next year. How do I tell my partner this now? I’ve only just barely come to terms with my herpes diagnosis and with this I feel like I can’t handle it. I’m a person with already low self esteem and this just makes me feel even more disgusting then I’ve ever felt in my life. Can anyone offer any wise words to help me through this? I can’t seem to get myself out of this black hole of self pity and self hatred and it’s showing on the outside. Much appreciated x