jellybean

I am new to this site and just learning how to use it. I was just at the doctor because I notice painful canker sore looking lesions on my vagina and got tested for herpes my results have not come back yet but my doctor said she is almost sure it is herpes. I am devastated. I am 21 and feel like my life is over. When i was in highschool i was friends with someone who was rumored to have herpes all though i never directly asked him nor had he ever told me, one night we (my girlfriends, i and him) were all hanging out and drinking while his parents were out of town i eventually went to go to bed in the other room and i woke up with him on top of me raping me i pushed him off of me and freaked out and he left the room i eventually passed out again, and left the next morning with my other girlfriends and one of them told me he went in a did the same to her while she was sleeping. we never told our parents and i am so hurt and wish i would have because now i possibly most likely have herpes from this rape and it is killing me inside and im so depressed i finally told my current boyfriend of two years about the rape and he came with me to the dr and is very supportive, however i have never had an outbreak and its been 5 or 6 years since the rape and i just tried to forget about it because i was scared and i didnt notice any symptoms after and now im having my first outbreak and its horrible i just dont know what to do please help any advice or support is so much appreciated !