Freefall

What type is it?

Today I definitely had some up and downs. I seem to be obsessed with looking at myself to see if I see any redness or blisters if I feel "tingling" or what I may think is slight burning. My mind is going every which direction and I keep trying to remain calm. If you read my story before, I was exposed orally and anally. What I'm fearing currently is that my symptoms anally may be internal instead of external. Maybe that's why I didn't have obvious lesions when I got very sick. I went to a walk in clinic to see if they'll swab it down there since I felt some burning (and noticed a little irritation in the opening) but he refused and said for me to stop trying to quantify this and accept that I have this virus and if I have sensations of an outbreak to take the pills. I got mad at him obviously and tried to explain I didn't see anything the first time down there and just want to make sure if what I'm feeling/seeing now is actually herpes and not just my hemorrhoids or UC so I'll know when to take my meds if I feel it again. He made me leave and I went grocery shopping and all I could think about is that I'm probably the only one here that has HSV-2 down below. A few times I caught myself tearing up in a few aisles thinking how I'm the only one.....the only one going through this and that there is no hope for me to get over it. I know this isn't true but when you're alone physically, all you have is your thoughts and sometimes those thoughts are not supportive.

Sorry everyone, I am having a little panic attack. I am afraid....so afraid. I posted my herpes story but I'm posting now for advice. I had oral and anal sex and now I may have it both orally and anally. I was infected December 13th....went on vacation with family a fee days later to Disney world, happest place on Earth supposedly, and while I was there had my outbreak orally. I say only orally becauae I had a super high fever and my throat was full of white gunk, including my tonsils. Didn't feel pain below but never looked. Fast forward 4 weeks and it's my birthday, and got the news three days later....I'm positive for HSV2. Since the 26th of January, I've been having tingling in my thighs (in the front) and my anus feels a little tingly. I'm scared I'll wake up one day and it will look like the Google pics I've seen down there. Showing a few symptoms in my mouth too....great, I most likely infected down below and in my mouth. It's day 54. I'm hesitant to start the meds in case this isn't an outbreak but still the same time, I don't want it to turn to blisters. Dependinf on what this looks like tomorrow, I'm going tomorrow to the clinic to get swabbed. Just need someone to talk to if anyone is available who is going thru what I am.

I second the advice of taking drugs to help with anxiety. And not depression drugs. So I'm taking propranolol which doesn't touch your hormones but reduces the side effects of anxiety, such as fast heart beat and "pacing around" so much, at least for me. When I found out I was positive for this, I was somewhat in your shoes where I needed someone to talk to, anyone. Talked to my doctor, the nurse, who was EXTREMELY supportive when I was told I was positive for HSV2 and even confessed that she has it too....she didn't have to do that but that right there made me feel that I wasn't alone. I know I'm not alone but forums are just words on a website and doesn't have the human touch that you may need. I did find that calling a depression hotline helped me as well. Even started seeing a counselor (all of this in the span of 3 days mind you). I have to ask, are you a smoker or drinker? Anything that you're doing to your body that is harming it is causing more stress to occur and can actually cause more frequent outbreaks, from what I read at least. You have someone who is with you and hopefully he supports you during this. Unfortunately for me, I had a hard time finding a bf or even a date before this encounter, and now I'm going to have an even harder time to find someone lol.

Oh I should mention I do have ulcerative colitis as well and just recently had my yearly colonoscopy on January 5th. Maybe when they had a camera in me, they caused more hemroids around the anus and possibly caused this new red spot. Red spot is not obvious when just looking at my hole either, you gotta use your thumb and pointer finger to open it a little to get the skin to unclinch and you'll see this tiny dot outside the rim of the hole but not in the rim if that makes sense. Tmi I know but trying to be descriptive as possible. When my doctor swabbed it, she said she seen it and said it looked like irritation and swabbed it. Later when she told me I was poz for this, I asked her how bad the dot looked and she said "honestly, I didn't see much of anything but I swabbed it for you". The hell?!

Yes, I get tested every three months and had all my records printed over the past 4 year's since i moved here. Always tested for herpes 1 and 2 and always negative. I believe this guy gave it to me as his doctor never tested him for herpes by blood so he may of had it and just had an outbreak while we had our encounter. I became equivocal when I got tested in December 8 days later and positive for HSV2 in January roughly 45 days later but only had symptoms in my mouth. Up until that second testing on the 26th I've been washing myself down there without a glove so I pray if I do have it down there, I didn't spread it to my hand unknowingly. I thought the same thing with this red spot down below that it may be old but if it's still there over a week later, it was the swab should have been accurate in testing it as it most likely was still active. Honestly, just an hour ago I was looking at it as closely as I could with a mirror and poked at it numerous times with gloves and it doesn't even hurt and hasn't grown in size. I'm hoping it's nothing but I have been noticing strange nerve feelings in my thighs and crotch area...hoping that's just paranoia. I'm also thinking the antibiotics were just a coincidence that it was clearing up while I was taking the pills. Well, so far, I've had symptoms mainly in my mouth and this random red spot below. I haven't taken any antivirals either....kinda want to see what will happen. I'm thinking if I do have it orally and if this was a mild outbreak, wouldn't it be likely that down below would outbreak too since orally is rare to have outbreak and below is more likely to have one?

No, I never experienced symtpoms down below. They swabbed the red spot I had seen below and it came back negative and actually the red spot is still there like over a week later so I'm guessing it's just there lol. It's a pinkish red spot.

Hello everyone. First off, is there anyone else on here who has oral HSV-2? Preferably someone who won't scare me with horrible outbreak stories lol. I am trying to be positive (haha, get it?) about my situation but like everyone on here, it's hard. I had oral and anal sex with another male on December 13. Stupid me, but because I trusted this guy and been fwb for a few months, we didn't use condoms this time around (and I even inspected his member for any anomalies like redness or bumps). Anal didn't last long at all, so I decided just to do oral. I can't remember, but I'm pretty sure I took a good shower afterwards. Anyway, on the 15th, I started my family vacation to Disney World. On the 16th, my throat started getting sore and I looked at it and noticed a white spot forming at the very back. Next day, woke up with a very high fever (didn't have a thermometer but found out later it was 105) and the back of my throat and tonsils were coated in this white stuff. I felt super super sick, but I pushed through it to enjoy myself. I did faint twice in the bathroom and once my mom had to get me out when I was naked, very embarrassing. I hardly ever get sick but i was definitely having something go on. I figured it was strep and eventually started wondering about gonnahrea and clymidia based on how it looked to me. Went to a walk in clinic on 18th, tested neg for strep but doctor thought it looked bacterial and gave me a z-pack of antibiotics for three days. On the 19th while still at Disney, the guy messaged me saying I gave him something as he is having symptoms on his penis that look like herpes. He got very very angry at me accusing me of giving this to him but I had test results from October that say I'm STD free at the time and that he never showed me his. 20th, he goes to doctor who tell him visually it is herpes but they swabbed him too. 21st I got back and went immediately to doctor who gave me more antibiotics, shot in butt, and tested me for everything. Swabs for gonno and clymidia as well as flu and strep were negative but never suspected hsv-2 in throat. The antibiotics were for 10 days and by day 5 I was feeling much better and it was almost gone. Test results came back, I was equivocal at 0.92 after 8 days from encounter. Ironically, I did not notice any other symtpoms and by the 26th, he contacted me out of the blue to tell me his swab was positive for hsv-2. Freaking out, I decided to look at my butt and noticed a very small red spot near butthole. I immediately went to doctor, had them do blood work and swab it. Birthday was on 28th so tried to be happy but was inside very sad and very scared and on Wednesday, January 31 came the news....my blood work showed I was positive for hsv-2. Next day, swab came back negative. Obviously, I am devastated and to be honest, do not know where this is! Is it in my mouth or ass or both?? Only symtpims I had was high fever, chills, white coated throat that did not hurt until towards the end when it was clearing up but I really don't remember any pain around my ass or anything during this time when I wiped or washed. My logic is telling me that if I was so sick and immune system so down during this time, I would most likely had an outbreak down below but no, only my throat. Today, I think I know part of the answer. Yesterday, I noticed a slight burning sensation on my gums and decided to look. Sure enough, two very small red spots are forming. This morning, looked again and they are still there but now one tonsil is again turning white and I have a little bit of redness at back of throat. So yeah, I am most likely in the small percentage of people who has HSV-2 in mouth. As you can imagine, I'm very scared and I have high anxiety all the time so I'm going to a doctor today to get some meds for that to reduce the stress and to get this swabbed to get it confirmed. Even now, I didn't see anything noticable down below so I'm hoping I didn't contract it down there too. Figured if hsv2 orally is rare to have an outbreak and I'm having one, I most likely would have one down below too.