Hope you're okay. I was diagnosed back in July after being pushed/taken advantage of after telling someone I'd been dating for a month that I wasn't ready to have sex. I got symptoms down below within a week. We argued so barely spoke after my diagnosis (as I'd been angry at him after the night we spent together and hoped never to see or think of him again)
I want to know:
-whether there is any chance that my genital hsv1 may not be from this encounter. I'm finding the depression and stigma surrounding the virus impossible enough to deal with, without feeling that it was from someone who argued with me and forced himself on me. I have a history of yeast infections and once was in inexplicable discomfort believing I had recurrent yeast infections and piles. Does any of this sound plausible? Is it ever possible to have mild initial symptoms and a more severe outbreak down the line? Or..is it possible for a severe outbreak to come out the blue?
It feels like im constantly reminded of how trusting and naive I was to date again and let a man in my life. It feels like a trauma.
Also.. How long did it take you to heal mentally from this? I was better at the beginning but I've got worse. I think about it everyday and read about it every night. I think its safe to say I'm suffering incredible depression (never have before despite my MS) and seriously need help, support and guidance. I'm increasingly feeling like this is too much of a burden to cope with.
Any help you can offer me at this dark time would be truly helpful and appreciated.