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  1. I think the final step in my healing process will be just coming out and saying I have it, fearlessly. I want to be able to say when I hear a herpes joke or incorrect facts, that no, that's not funny, and I have herpes and I know... And I'm not ashamed of my skin condition. Maya Angelou said "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you" my stories and my life. Once I have a plan I'm going to message Adrial for advice on how to start. I also need to overcome other social fears such as being a bisexual woman, and come out of the closet (when I feel its time of course). You are such a kind and sweet woman to respond to my posts all the time, thank you so much for the advice and kind words.
  2. Thank you so much, you are wonderful and helpful like always! Mwah, much love to you!
  3. I'm having a gnarly herpes outbreak right now, and it hurts so bad that it's been interfering with my work (I have to run around a lot) I took a bath with tea in it (just to try to see if there's any medicinal effects) but I want the whole shebang, anything out there that can just numb the pain away completely? Or at least just for a few hours so I can work comfortably???
  4. I may be close to your daughter's age, being 20 years old (but that's just me assuming), I remember the day I told my parents I had herpes. I was 18 years old and I came down stairs early in the morning told my parents I had herpes and I have a court date coming up because I stole some cloths at Target (*these were my rebellious days*) and just weeped in their arms. I thought I had it all under control but I didn't I needed my parents. I think she would benefit from a site like this when she's ready. I didn't start talking to other people with herpes until recently, everyone is different, but I think we can all agree it was scary for all of us, and life changing. But I love herpes, I'll just flat out say it, I wouldn't be the person I am if I didn't have it. I would be just as ignorant as everyone else, I would have not known it's hardship, and know how strong I am. It's a blessing made to look like a curse from society. I'm in a happy relationship with my boyfriend for a little over a year now, and he is HVS2 free! Let her know her love life isn't over, she is beautiful, and she is loved and that's as much as you can do, unless she requests more. Hope I could help, feel welcome to message me as well!
  5. Hey everyone, I've kind of fallen off of the face of the planet recently but I have a new laptop now! I'll be posting more now because of that. I guess the last few months I've been ignoring that I have herpes, if you know what I mean? Just some days you wake up just wanting to be like everyone else, but for myself personally I'm not like everyone else for other reasons as well. People living with herpes in particular are survivors of society's stigmas, which are a deadly force to reckon with, but we do this every single time we step out of our comfort zones to talk about what its like to have herpes. Some days I'm angry, I wonder why my life is the way it is, and even when I find positive answers like meeting my boyfriend and him having to build our trust and love around the fear of infecting him, and just using herpes as a bullshit blocker; I still cant help but remember that there is no fucking answer, and if there is an answer that I can comprehend I'm not meant to know it. This all circles around a point I'm trying to make that I'm having difficulty articulating... I'm a 20 year old student who's a cashier at a diner, everyday I stand there at my register taking strangers orders wondering what their lives hold, what their battle is--or was,and what made them who they are. I then look at myself, and feel pathetic, after all I've been through in the last 5 years I still am afraid to tell my story, to let people know me. I feel like I live in fear of society in this taboo existence that makes me in constant fear of my peers and family knowing that I have disease that I struggle with and will have to live with forever. This realization leads me to this; what do I do? I want to do what a lot of you are doing. I want to find that bravery and just lie it all on the table. I want to talk to other people with herpes, and I want to educate other young people about the risks. I'm not ashamed of something that I cannot change about myself, I don't feel like it lessens me, and I don't feel like it's a terrible thing about me, but I'm so afraid of the torment I've previously experienced letting people know I have herpes. When I start being honest about who I am, and what I've been through in my short life's journey, and not holding back I'll fix this broken part of myself that is so damaged and scared. I shouldn't have to be afraid of my reality, and my reality is that whether I like it or not, and whether my peers like it or not is that I'm going to have herpes for the rest of my life, and there is nothing anyone can do about that. As I type this, I tear up, because it's scary being alone on this particular journey of myself. There's a herpes support group meeting that I've been meaning to go to for months at my local Planned Parenthood, I'm gonna go to the next one. It's a good step to build my confidence. I'll keep you all updated, much love to you all! Missed talking!!!
  6. I dont plan on it, but i had sex 2 days ago protecred with the medication
  7. If u have no genital to genital contact where no sores are ( just found a sore inside my anus) is it less likely to spread???
  8. If u have a sore on the anus when you have protected vaginal sex?
  9. My boyfriend has hepatitis c, and sometimes he gets scared of being infected with two dieseases. He said hed probably feel like dying if it happened, and be very angry at both of us... But i know he wouldnt call me any names. It just feels like everything is against us sometimes....
  10. l'll have mini panic attacks time to time thinking about my relationship before my current one and how he was infected with herpes by me... the names he called me, how much it hurts thinking i did that to him...the guilt still haunts me. Since me and my current boyfriend started having sex i wonder about all these things again. Back then with my previous boyfriend i had sex during an outbreak and didn't know any better.... now i do. But i still hurt thinking about what happened and how its possible again.... i love my boyfriend now more than i've ever loved someone and sometimes its scary.... anyone feel the same way? How do u cope?
  11. Whats the best source? What is the statistics for herpes transmission during an outbreak with condom? Just curious.
  12. Im dealing with this with my boyfriend right now. Hes hepatitis c positive and im hvs 2 positive. So him getting infected by me would be a double whammy.... He says the herpes is the only thing that discourages him being with me because he wants to make sure hes okay. He says im perfect but he has to make sure hes okay so my situation it is the herpes... but i dont think hes going anywhere soon. :)
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