Ponce44..keep coming here, share your story , maybe it will help someone and let them know they are not alone. I can tell you that in itself made me feel on top of the world. Know that although we dont "know" each other, that you have sisters and brothers here that will hear you, help you and love you. The best way things heal is when it has air to breathe. This place is somewhere where your emotions have that air to breathe. You will find that person, to love you through it, you just have to believe it. Dont let herpes control your life, tell yourself that everyday when youre down about it, i know thats easy to say but you would be surprised by the power of the mind.