Rewind to last year, met a girl. Hit it off, started dating, had sex a couple weeks after we met. A week later she doesn't want to see me because of "a problem on her face." I said no problem, let's see. Well it was herpes, didn't know what kind at the time. She tells me that it was a partner from the week that we met. We both get tested it didn't show up.
Eventually we get serious. After a few months we move across country and on the road is when I had my first outbreak. We stayed together for a while until she was unfaithful and we decided its best to end it. Neither of us was happy.
Just got tested like normal after a relationship, just to be safe. 3 days later, doc calls me back in. I knew. Seeing it on paper really rocked me.
Re-reading this i realize I'm the only one to blame. I should have been more careful, less risky. I do feel like crap, all the way around. Feels like my life is over, even though I know its not that serious. Feel alone. I just had to get this off my chest. I want to blame everyone else but myself, but it doesn't change the diagnosis.
If anyone can share, I need help. I normally don't ask for help, but right now I need it.