Coffeeislife101

I feel you, I was diagnosed just a month ago. I go from feeling hatred and anger, betrayal..you name it..towards who infected me to complete devastation and thinking this is it, how will I ever feel okay with disclosing this awful thing about me. How will anyone ever want to take the chance. I know people say that they meet people that accept it, but I feel it’ll be like finding a needle in a haystack, and all the rejection it’ll take to get there..yeesh, that’s gotta be brutal to your self esteem. As bad as the physical pain was, 4 weeks in and yes, it’s gotten quite a bit better but I’m still not completely over it. The emotional pain is so much worse. I know where you’re coming from. Realize this response isn’t a positive one but just letting you know I feel the same. I admire the people that can just own it and not let it bring them down, I’m definitely not there yet. Here’s hoping this somehow gets easier to swallow. You’re not alone 🙁