Thank you so much for sharing this. I just found out I got hsv1 and test results show that it’s a recent infection like yours. The guy also bailed after he infected me. We also used condoms. I’ve been crying, feel like my life is over. The psychological battle is tough. I come from a very cultural family so I don’t feel comfortable sharing this with them, which makes it all the more isolating. I’m so scared about what dating will look like going forward. I want to fall in love, get married, and have children. Right now it seems impossible. I’m shattered. Feels like my life is over. I have the same victim mentality you did. I hope to one day get to where you are mentally.