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No words of wisdom as such but definitely hear your concerns and recognise how I felt when diagnosed - bawled my eyes out saying I'm disgusting and then found out my best friend had it too - such a relief. Now we're the herpaderp sisters lol. Trying to think who could have given it to you will drive you stir crazy because of it being able to lay dormant for a long time - you can't control it and it won't make a difference to your diagnosis or how you feel so it's wasted energy. You're early on in your experience with it so one thing many people would say is not to worry as the number of outbreaks drastically declines after the first year and you may only have one or two outbreaks. You're not disgusting! your body just needs some further support to handle a condition. There's medication that can help reduce outbreaks and shedding if you wanted after a while which can support your partner too but one thing I learnt is time will tell what your body needs so annoyingly you do have to be patient. Stress is a trigger for my outbreaks so one thing I have to do is not stress about it lol Instillagel is great but if you run out or get caught out - wetting some tissue and holding over your sores to pee can provide some relief.