Nanny

I feel the same way I am older I lost all my family already my ex who was my only and best friend for yrs and I not only feel afraid to be reflected by men but by other women and friends. This doesn’t happen to ppl where I am from I feel like a lepper on an island. I told one friend only to be met with silence and distance. I am sry you are going through this. I hope it means the ppl we meet that accept us will be more meaningful friendships. I spent most of my life sick with another illness and always pushed myself on dark days to think it happened to me because I am strong enough to handle it and I am trying hard to get to that place with this as well. I like to think it happened because I need to learn something from it about acceptance and love and hope everything happens for a purpose. I am having a hard time getting there

I started having a horrible itch I must’ve scratched it and it actually got infected I went in thinking it was an ingrown hair and given antibiotics it started to go away or the swelling did but after a full std panel I learned it was herpes. So it’s been a full month later I started vitamins supplements and antivirals cream but the rash isn’t going away. Is there a chance it just won’t? I am extremely worried and in constant pain where it rubs all day unless I don’t climb stairs or move but I can’t lay in bed all day. I also feel fatigued and can’t wake up sick to my stomach I don’t know what to try next