There's been chemistry building between a good friend and I and he already told me he had strong feelings for me. I waited to get to know him more to decide if I felt like this is someone who I could be serious with (not wanting to risk potential transmission if it isn't the real deal) and yesterday I knew I was falling for him too. We danced, we kissed, he invited me back to his place. I told him on the way there & he was quiet for a bit. Later he told me that he wanted to continue to be friends and that we could kiss and cuddle but he didn't want to put himself at risk. So I had to accept that and I enjoyed the kissing and cuddling & being there as a friend but man it's frustrating. Maybe it's also that I'm feeling very sexually frustrated now, after being out of a long term relationship for a few months now, and being in my early 30s. I've had a few partners/relationships since getting herpes and they were all pretty supportive & we carefully had protected sex. I didn't expect this reaction and I really like him but am concerned that if we do remain cuddle buddies that all this sexual frustration may actually lead to an outbreak because of the stress, as that is my main trigger. Yet on the other hand I love the affection and connection and intimacy and maybe I should just try to be grateful for that. Still it would be better to be with someone who accepts all of me and is willing to be with me fully, yet right now I don't feel like I would want to be with anyone else. So I feel all vulnerable and depressed and don't know what to do. He's a good friend, who now knows all my secrets. I feel like maybe I should try to talk to him more but I also don't feel like I'd want to pressure him towards being sexual because I don't think he's comfortable with the idea of it, which would not make for a comfortable intimate experience anyway. Any advice would be appreciated, thanks