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Every month I seem to have an OB. My Ob consist of usually one or two sores right next to each other. I have asked questions before of how can I heal it faster and I read some comments in where people have said drying it with alcohol. I know is going to sting like a mother $#@% ... but its like when you get a cut you put alcohol to disinfected it and so whenever you shower it wont sting anymore. Is it the same process for these sores ? These sore are very stressing and make me feel like crap and I have been diagnosed with H 5 months ago and it hasn't been any easier. every time I get an OB it lowers my self esteem so down that I just want to be lock in a room and cry day and night. Its really tough when you don't have a friend or anyone who knows what your going through other than the really nice people that are on this site. By the way Happy Halloween :)

hey don't feel bad im only 22 and I have hv2 and my pap smear came back abnormal and as if getting the Herpes news wasn't horrible right after he said that he also said that my pap smear was abnormal and made it seem like it wasn't a big deal little did he know I wanted to jump off a building. long story short I had a different doctor who was very kind and explained to me that to get cancer from hpv is rare and it usually only happens to those who don't follow up with they pap smear.

There are some days when I wake up hopeless, wishing there was a cure for Herpes. the H word makes me so nervous and scare. for some reason I here HIV I feel scare and so much guilt and I know I have been passed the stage in where I didn't know the difference between Herpes and HIV. but my brain finds a way to make me feel bad as if having Herpes was like having HIV. one of the reason is because now that I have Herpes, I cant donate blood and I used to love helping others. I just hope that no family member ever needs blood from me. its been 5 months since finding out I have Herpes and its been a tough and I feel happy at times but then I go back to remembering how much pain I felt when the doctor said I have Herpes. I just wish there was a cure!!!

I think he recommended me that cream because it stings once I pee. I stop using the cream and I found it effective because the sores stopped hurting right away. im also going to buy L-Lysine tomorrow. thank you guys so much.

when having an OB is it a good I idea to put cream on the sore, when I was diagnosed with Herpes the doctor said to use any antibiotic cream to heal the pain a bit. My OB are usually are so far only two sores right next to each other on my left vulva lip. Does putting cream heal it faster because I read some info that said its better to keep it dry down there while having an OB to heal it faster. Is this true?

thank you so much im going to a CVS tomorrow to get it and start taking it. I really hope it works on me.

he hasn't gotten any cold sores at all. when I got my first OB he too got a sore in his penis and that was it, I supposed maybe his immune system is stronger. I do know that there are tons of people who have Herpes and will never know it because they show no symptoms because of a good immune system. it just doesn't make sense that I never got an OB until 5 months ago after having sex with someone for 2 years. He knows he's the one who gave it to me because I was a virgin when I first met him and he gave me my first kiss and everything. He hates the fact that transmitted Herpes to me without knowing he had it and I by no mean blame him at all. I just find it weird I never gotten an OB until now.

Hey golddust, looks like we are both in the same boat. I too attend college and I wish I had the courage to tell my parents that I have Herpes but I know they would hate me and judge me more than they already do. I'm only 22 and I'm still living with my parents and I know if I was to ever tell my siblings they will pretty much bring it up whenever they get angry at me. writing this comment to you made me cry because I'm the person who has always been picky in every way possible I never drink from anyone cup couldn't eat from the same spoon as someone else, and to top it off I got Herpes and I have only been with one person in my entire life and probably staying that way forever. I understand how you feel and believe me you're one strong person, I was diagnosed with Herpes 5 months ago and it took me all that time to start thinking straight and realizing there are people going through a lot of worse things like Cancer. I live in NYC and I think no other city is more judgmental than this one, I know your pain. Feel free to message me it would really help to have a normal convo with someone who is going through the same thing. I admire you're courage to tell your family and deal with it as a grown women but remember no matter how grown you're we still have feelings and emotions we cannot always control. Hope to hear from you :)

I don't understand how I have been dating my Bf for over 2 years and I had not one single OB and suddenly I happened to get an OB and after that I have been getting probably 2 more OB and I just don't understand why didn't I get OB before. I trust my BF but it just doesn't add up and I have never been with anyone else ever, unless he had slept with someone while being with me and contracted Herpes. I know he has had partners before me, but we have been in a serious relationship and sexually active for 2 years. five months ago I was diagnosed with Herpes and it just doesn't make since that after all that time of being sexually active I had an OB. My bf has been very supportive and I honestly don't know what ill do without his support but it just doesn't quite make since to me can anyone help me out. Please :(

Getting an OB is making me feel like the first time I got the news of having Herpes, I sitting here in my bedroom dying to cry my eyes out but holding back because I have family members who are here with me right now and have no idea of what I go through. I just cant imagine the rest of my life feeling this way, and I hate myself for feeling so weak knowing that there are people going through worse things than this. I cant help it I pitty myself so much. im only 22 and im going to be dealing with this for the rest of my life and it makes me feel so sad. Every time I get an OB I don't want to feel this way. I want to make my Immune system stronger I don't know how to make it stronger. I don't want to take the pills for Herpes that the doctor prescribes. Its been 5 long months since finding out I have Herpes and it hasn't been easy but I have come a long way from that person who I became who just wished to die and thought of suicidal thought. I'm really thanksful for this website because I honestly don't know where I would be right now.

So what is Lysine and how does it help with Herpes and if I was to buy it on my own in the pharmacy will people automatically know that is for Herpes? I haven't really gotten OB but since im back to college, i stress myself way too much and I want to try to prevent getting OB's.

Ohh so I guess I just got my second outbreak, it makes me feel so overwhelmed and defeated. I only got one sore and its been there for a few days and I just put antibiotics ointment cream and try and atleast twice a day check if it has spread anywhere else and so far it hasn't I feel like the sore is going away because before it hurt but now it doesn't. Can you guys explain to me why hasn't it spread, I'm sorry for all the questions I just don't know much about it and the more I know the easier I can deal with it. Thank you :)

I was tested for hsv2, I have only had one OB which is the one that I found out I have genital herpes.

Is an OB consider just having one little sore or a maybe 5 or more??

Wow this video made me cry all the way from the beginning to the end, such a beautiful video that tells nothing but the truth. i can honestly say i wouldn't be recovering from my mental break down after finding out i have herpes with out you @Dancer2010 never did i know someone could help me and influence me and encourage me via internet the way you did. i will forever be thankful and grateful for everything you have done. I do plan to some day spill it all out because i do realize is the only way to actually live a happy free life, i know the timing is not right and i'm not sure i'm ready to handle criticism and i can already be my worse critic. Thank you so much because really i would wake up with suicidal thought everysingle day and life was worthless since finding out i have Herpes nothing excited me and i lose my purpose in life and i'm not sure if you remember a girl who posted about NYPD not being able to hired her because of Herpes, well that was me and you hit me straight up with facts and opened my eyes to reality and not the negative thinking i was building up inside of me. I may never get to meet you but you truly safe my life, and yes i'm still struggling but i have faith now and knowledge that i didn't have before. I truly hope to someday help others the way you helped me. I'm a waterfall right now but these are tears of happiness and i know there would be more happy tears in the future. Thank you <3

By the way i have never been on the pill that they give you for Herpes. I just don't feel like taking them either. i just want to try my best to deal with it without having to take pills for the OB because its all about the Immune system.

Hey guys, i wanted to post this about a few days ago and the account locked me out. i wanted to let everyone else who just recently found out the have Herpes that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. i was diagnosed with Genital Herpes back in May when i had my first OB, my world crashed down i became depress lonely sad i didn't have a reason to continue living life. I had a normal life things didn't always go my way but i kept going, imagine finding out you have Herpes and only having one partner in your entire life that goes for kissing as well. I never had another Boyfriend before and i have been in a relationship for 2 years. I never in a million years thought i would be going through it. I cried day and night, i live with my parents. i had to hide my tears from them because i have a very judgmental family who i would probably never tell them i have genital herpes. But the only person who i did want to tell was my mother because i felt like i let her down, i was her little girl. the one that always had the right answer and smart decisions but this time it wasn't that way and i felt so lonely. Yes my boyfriend was there for me, but it just wasn't enough i ended up going to counseling because i would wake up without a reason to live, i had desire nothing just my bed and death. Counseling was helpful because it made me realize Herpes is not the end of the world, people will judge you regardless of who you are. i was so stuck on the stigma that Herpes carries which technically means that " only those who sleep around will get herpes" well guess what i'm the proof that that's not the case. Counseling help but what really helped me was this website, because i needed some type of closure that my dreams of having one day a family weren't crushed and i got that. Believe me when i say every single day i wake up with HERPES in my head and is something i wish i could erase from my memory because it sucks and hurts so much. The OB is nothing compare to the mental pain at all. I realize i only have one life and i need to enjoy it and make something out of it. Please do not let HERPES end your life. i didn't want to feel better by being told by my counselor that at least i don't have something more fatal like HIV or Hepatitis, that didn't make me feel good at all because i didn't want to feel better by looking for worse thing that people could have i wanted to feel better by accepting who i am and what i have. I accepted what i have and the only person who know i have this are the doctors and my boyfriend and i don't plan on telling my family for now or maybe ever because i'm only 21 years old and i have progress so much since May, but i'm no rock, i can still hit rock bottom again because those injury that herpes have caused have not heel completely. I have become more sympathetic towards others and understanding. i cant speak like others who have had Herpes for years now but i can say things do get better, you have to give it your all in order to overcome it, its honestly the only way. * As i wrote this Blog i was in tears the entire time because i'm still very emotional over having Herpes and i also feel like i'm getting my second OB and i feel like shutting down again, but i wont do that i just wont let an OB affect me. Feel free to click on my name so you guys can see the post that i have written before and it would show you i was in a really dark place.

I have been going to counseling because after finding out I have genital herpes I pretty much felt like my life felt apart.. I have made some progress by going to counseling everyday I realize how much my life is not worthy. Im only 21 years old and i have misery life only been sexually active with one person in my entire life that includes kissing as well.the only person who know about my herpes are the doctors and my counselor and my boyfriend. I wish one day I could tell my family but I'm not sure that would ever happen because they have made comments about herpes and they were very mean comments and they would feel disgusted by me. As I write this im pouring tears. I find no energy to get up from bed and enjoy the day. Nothing at all. I'm terrified that people find out and judge me because I have herpes. My boyfriend is very supportive and he wants to spend the rest of his life with me but what if it doesn't work out, we have been together for 2 years. What if one day things just dont work and no ever want to date me. Herpes has ruin my life I want to seriously die and just end this misery life that I am living. its a nightmare that i can never awaken from. No one will ever accept me because i have herpes not even my family ,They will be disgusted if they found out. And ashamed of me. I have been going to college to become a police officer (NYPD) chances are they wont accept me because i have herpes. My medical record is going to a big sign that says I'M INFECTED WITH HERPES, so everywhere i take my medical record people are going to know. Its a matter of time for people in school to find out and judge me. That triggers to make me hate my life more. I don't know how am I going to be able to overcome this I feel depressed and desperate. I have always guided myself but now i dont know how to go on in life living with Herpes. When will i see the light at the end of the tunnel ?? I'm 21 I should want to enjoy youth and instead i want to forward it and not enjoy anything. Because whenever i feel happy my brain finds a way to ruin it by thinking of herpes and why i shouldnt be enjoying myself. I tend to beat myself up by comparing herpes with HIV, I don't know how to stop myself from mentally abusing myself. Im a believer i wish one day we could all be cure. Thank you guys for reading, my depressing post. i just want to vent out.

Wcsdancer2010, thank you soo much for your wonderful powerful comment because i tend to have a strong mind but i have my weak side in there is people criticize others and I don't want to be judged my the fact I have herpes, and I don't want to harm my family(mom) by telling her I do because shes a women that has gone through a lot and though I am far from perfect she puts me as an example and I don't and cant and wouldn't want to break her heart because shes not familiar with herpes and how it works. I find it so weird that in almost 2 years that me and my boyfriend have together I never experienced an OB till now, when i had the OB I was really stress like never before well until I found out I have herpes (haha). I want to have kids I just fear that maybe ill damage the child and I couldn't do that to someone. Maybe one day I'll grow older and wiser and be able to be as brave as you to tell the world you have Herpes, but right now I'm not at the place in where I can be as free as you are. Since I found out I have herpes I been living life just to live and wait for death and I don't want to continue living that way. I want that excitement I once had :( .. its just not that easy I wish I was stronger like I thought I was and like I showed my friends who have been to tough time I helped them get up and back on their feet but I can't even do that myself. I'm worrying so much about my future when I don't even know how im going to get passed the present. My gynecologist is a male and he wasn't so sympathetic over the news that i have herpes specially when giving me the news he made it seem as if it wasn't a big deal and even laugh and I just burst into tears and they had to call me a social worker to come talk to me. He assured me that people give herpes a bad name and people who have gotten chicken pops have the Herpes virus which later turns into shingles. Most people don't even know that specially in NYC where people are as rude as they can be.Most people at my age are still acting very immature another reason to why I want to keep this H secret between me and my boyfriend. Once again thank you for taking your time to read and response, you have no idea how your comment as help me. Sorry for not breaking it down in paragraphs im writing from my cellphone. Once again thank you ♥

Thank you guys both sooo soo much, herry I really appreciate the tough love conversation its really what I need because im very stubborn and you're right the NYPD can't care about that it would be discrimination. Im very stubborn and I tend to always hope for the worse. And I never expected to be going through this. You guys have helped me so much (herry and thisismenow). I will try to continue studying and achieve my dreams ♥

I understand life goes on but im an emotional mess. I feel so hurt. I came here because people in here truly help because I was googling things that made me feel worse specially yahoo answer where people dont care about others. I'm just hoping theres a light at the end of the tunnel, because I feel like my world is crushed and all that I have study in college is going to be worthless now that I have herpes I fear that NYPD will reject me and I won't be able to have a kids. It's like im in a pool and im drowning. :(

Thanks herry, I was reading your comment and I burst into tears. I feel so emotionally damaged. I did a pap smear and it came out abnormal and the doctor told me not worry that at my age is rare for me to have a cervical cancer. But I can't stop crying I feel like my life is over, I seriously haven'tmeet anyone with herpes and kids. My life is over. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel so depressed. Thank you for taking your time to read my post. It means a lot because there are so many mean people in the internet that just made me feel worse and this site there are very good genium people.

I found out I have genital herpes about 2 to 3 weeks ago and ever since my life has crash. I have only been with one person in my entire life, we have been together for almost 2 years and I have a year and being sexually active. I had a breakout so I went to the doctor and within a few days I got a call back and I went to the doctor and he told me I had genital herpes and I just burst in tears because all my dreams my life has basically been taken away, I'm only 21years old and I some day wanted to have a family and thats pretty much been stolen from me. And maybe even the career im studying for which is to someday become an NYPD, but who would want to hire someone who has herpes and I can't never have kids. I'm so hurt im in tears while writing this post. My boyfriend has been very supportive and hates to see me crying and its so ashamed that he was the one who gave it to me though he has no symptom and neither did I for the time that I have been sexually active. Suicidal thoughts have been in my head often and I don't do it because that would kill my mom and I don't want to hurt her. No one knows I have genital herpes other than my boyfriend and I couldn't dare to tell my family because they would feel disgusted by me. That is exactly how I feel about myself and I wouldn't want to bring more pain to my mother. I'm just so depressed I can't never have a normal life and a chance to have kids because I would never bring a child into this world with a risk of have a disease. Pleaseeee help me this is so painful.