Theres times when i feel ok but times where i just wanna curl up, but i cant I have a 8mth gorgeous daughter to care and be strong for. but no one gave me this I did I did this to myself. Ive had hsv1 for a while I performed oral sex on my bf then the next day bam i had this stupid sore on my lips i freaked i freaked the f out my worst fear I knew what was but hoped it was too early for it to pass. nope with in a week n a half out came the sore down there. I cried n cried. I cant stand myself or my body it always told me when to stay away something in body told me not to and i wouldnt touch nothing but this time I had no clue i had a burning sensation but not where i always get my cold sore so i thought nothing of it but a blackhead remover lotion i used N to put my man at risk makes me even more mad I was always super catious, but this time I had no clue :( i hate it i hate it. He til now has had no symptoms n heard it was harder for men to get so i hope this means he doesnt til he gets tested. I didnt ever imagine being the girl to give someone something I havent been able to look in the mirror since then.
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