Frightened

I went to bed feeling great last night. I had a lovely evening with my wife and step-son. I have a close friend to confide in, and that helped also. This morning is a different story. I feel like I have jock itch on my inner thighs, which I do get from time to time at this time of year. I'm so scared-Can't eat. . I'm so stupid and ashamed.

Thank you so much. I'll update as things unfold.

So, first off I feel like a complete scumbag, and maybe I am. She started giving me oral for about 10-20 seconds, and I made her stop and put a condom on. She continued with the oral and I was rubbing her butt. She rolled over and I noticed what looked like lots of scars around her anus. I freaked out an asked her to leave. I masturbated to avoid blue balls, not thinking that I may have touched a sore. I was worried about cops, but never thought about an STD for some reason. I'm an idiot. I'm at day 14 and haven't had any visual symptoms, but got vertigo real bad at day ten. I got tested on day 10 as well, and am awaiting the results. I'm dying inside, and know that even if my test is negative, it could be because it was too soon after contracting. I'm hoping I'm just suffering from guilt. Help.