As someone who has always put my trust into others, and be careful in many ways, I always use protection during intercourse but it seems I was not careful enough. My life has had its up and downs but I always try to look on the positive side of things. I was recently diagnosed with herpes and after my diagnosis I knew it could only be from one person. I have been with only one man in my life, so I knew immediately that my ex boyfriend had passed the virus on to me. At first I was not angry but surprised, because in the time of our 2 year relationship I had tested negative for everything and never showed any signs. Our relationship most recently came to a close, as we were growing apart and arguing more and more....After I told him about my symptoms he initially acted shocked but in a way disregarding my concerns. He would keep using phrases such as : "It's really not that bad" or " You're being dramatic about this", when in my heart I believe I had the right to feel upset. I asked him if he had ever known that he had the virus and at first he said no. I continued to ask him and eventually he confessed to me that he knowingly has had HSV1 for over 5 years and never thought it was "important enough" to tell me about it. And even confessed that the last time we were intimate he had a outbreak shortly before, but thought they're was no risk. After his confession I was extremely angry and truly heartbroken. It upsets me that someone who has HSV1 and who HAS the power to share their story with others and take the steps to protect future partners wouldn't use that power to be educated. I believed that putting your trust into someone means they would always tell you the truth.... I'm feeling ugly, undesirable and lied to. Why did this person not chose to be honest with me? As a carrier myself I know that I will always disclose to future partners, because it's something we will go through together as a couple..... I just wanted to turn to this forum to ask how I can past over this shame I feel inside? These self doubts that I am the one at fault for this happening. And I hope I don't come across too dramatic...but I just feel so utterly lost in all of this, that I am truly needing the help and support of others.