Hey guys great thing you are doing in support of herpes. I was diagnosed with hsv2 three weeks ago, and has been devastated ever since. First let me begin with the day. The tech took my blood. I felt that it was very unprofessional that she took my blood without my paperwork on her desk. After she took the blood I asked do I need to sign something? She said no they will send the paperwork back. I looked and made a face, but didn't say too much, but I do remember walking off saying what if they get my blood mixed up. Okay so fast forward a couple of days later I had to come in for abnormal test results, and was I scared I was thinking HIV, Trich, or something. My doctor said you have gential herpes, but I promise you, you will be fine we usually treat when you have a outbreak call me when you have an outbreak, and walked out the door. I was shocked, but at first I didn't cry because I thought it was not real, and I can honestly say I never had an outbreak, never had a partner to say anything to me about this. I don't have an ongoing relationship, and I'm not a promiscuous person, but I'm very confused because I don't when I contracted this virus since I have never expierenced an outbreak. I feel I had it for years, I can't even come to turns with this I'm wrecking my mind I have been with my child father for almost ten years and never had a problem, we took a break a couple of years ago and I had friends, and I know he did too. in fact he had another baby but we still messed around with each other. I can't even fix my mouth to even call and tell him, because every time I think about it I start throwing up. I'm depressed I haven't ate in almost a week, and not that much after my doctor told me. I'm failing all my classes I'm just falling apart. This bring me to this I hear so many say that their old partners say they don't have the virus after you tell them, then your stuck looking like a piece of trash and a nasty bitch, and that is so unbearable I keep thinking maybe he doesn't have it, because he had another baby and I don't know if she had been tested while she was pregnant, but me and him always had unprotected sex, we just had it a couple of months ago. Since I really don't know how I got it I could have gotten it before my baby daddy, and all them years we were together. then there is a thought that he could of gave it to me I don't know how much I can trust to say he would tell me. None of my partners have approached me about herpes or anything related to it.
The guy that I was messing with besides my child father, I slept with him before my test but he has not said anything of an outbreak. but he did say something to me that had me thinking. We had unprotected sex before we have been seeing each other for over a year, and before my results came back he asked me to come over and bring a rubber? The first time he ever asked me that. So I asked why and he said he was getting cortisone shots and didn't want the medicine to get in me, which I found weird. In which I also knew that them shots suppress your immune system, but I felt confident that there was any problem he would tell me. I even called and question my doctor about my results and how the lady did my blood wrong, and could of caused a mix, and they were very sure it was my blood, but come on now I'm reaching for any hope. I keep feeling like I need to be re tested so I can just confirm this. I keep reading articles saying that you have to get right with the diagnosis first before you can feel comfortable when telling someone you care about. I'm lost. Please help.
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