He still wants to be with me and has apologized countless times but I just cant forgive him for not listening when I said no several times. I know we all make mistakes but this one is one I dont think I could ever forget especially after the outcome. I cant ket my friends know im still in contact with him bc im embarrassed about it. And feel pathetic for thinking hes the only one who will want me now. I cant even bring myself to see him...I wish this were all just a dream and I could wake up.