eibhlin

Here's an update on my situation although the talk went well the relationship failed with him being not so honest with me how things anyway that's over and now the anxiety somewhat starts to creep back in. I think I'm destined to be alone or I just have the worst luck with men. I'll be 40 in a few months and I'm tired of not finding someone deserving of what I offer. Maybe I need to take time to learn to love and accept myself with the situation I have and the place I am in my life. Sometimes it's just so frustrating to feel like I'm not deserving of what everyone else seems to find. Maybe someday :(

omg im freaking out this is the second time i disclosed. the first was by a letter but in person the guy took it well but said he has to do his research and decided he couldnt do it i was like im never going to be able to do this. fast foward a few months ive only been hanging out with this a guy like 2 weeks but he wants to spend alot of time together and i noticed feeling were started to develop for both so i had to do it we were hanging out and for the life of me i couoldnt get it out, so the next day he wanted to see me and i was like this is it i cant take the stress and anxiety anymore so i asked him to call me and i had it written down what i was gonna say and i cant believe his reaction, he started talking to me about it right away asked a few questions and said hey i could have it and not know it, its so common. then was like im not a creep and it doesnt change my feelings for you i actually like you more now. so are you coming over to make dinner or what and you can educate me more on it. im so happy right know that its out and who knows where this will go but i just wanted people who are dealing with the fear of the talk everything works out how it should just get it over with and whatever happens, happens. totally off the record tho i cant wait for adrial forever lol omg i just think your great!

i am in that area and would love to meet people in the same situation