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u can buy tea tree oil at naturally yours too. $8 for a bottle. lasts a long.time!!

:D GO TO naturally yours and there r tea tree oil chapstick sold there..it helps! the wipes r a package of unscented baby wipes w a mixture of tea tree oil and water poured n and sloshed around. it helps too

thanks everyone for talking to me and dealing with my bashing talk... i usually just suppress talking about this...but i cant anymore.. i just feel so angry..and im tired of dealing with it alone...

and on top of all of this...i wonder how long I've had herpes...i know who i got it from..so i wonder if tge next two boyfriends were exposed to that as well..

(referring to my hpv..thats what i gave..genital warts..i had ONE. one spot..And it transferred..and i created a string of infectees

that came out wrong...i infected my ex bf..who infected his new gf...who dumped him to get w someone who had herpes and then they infected eachothee..

the person i infected went on to infect a boy...who in turn gave her.herpes..its never ending...i just dont want to give the unbreakable gifts to anyone else...

which is why i choose to be alone for now. im renovating. focusing on school and my son and my dog and my family.,i have no time for boys. a relationship would get in my way. plus i dont want to spread what i have because i know im careful but the one person i accidentally infected went.on to infect alot more ppl..its a continuing string...

i mean...anyone who's never been burned is scared of it..what my sons dad did was he actually showed me a breakout and explained to me that yeah it hurts a little but if u just take the meds, it is not bad. most time it pushes it right back down the nerve and away from the skin.. i guess dont have sex either until u really feel it's right... but then again im not sure if my comment is helpful? i tried though.

the problem is..i trusted that he would stay..and he didn't. it was kinda like yeah i agree to accept your herpes if u agree to accept my hpv. and we agree to stay together. but here i am a single mama. but im at a point n my life whwre i let no one in. because i dont want to have the TALK. i have absolutely so sexual urges..because everytime a man acts interested i think about what a little FUN caused me, I CANNOT let it go...because i keep thinking what if the next burn is hiv..i dont have time to play around..if i got hiv I'd die sooner..and i have a son to raise..so if i have to be alone..i accept it..at least i keep my viruses to myself...and peopl keep theirs..

thank u so much for sharing! is it bad to say u really put a smile on my face? my doctor just took my test a few days ago..today i revieved a call and in like just tell me i cant take it..and the nurse was like im just calling to schedule ur annual pap smear. hahahah! i really hope its negative but i know it probably isnt..and now i really just want some of this miracle medicine to make the scabies like itch to go away..and the sores to quit hurting.. :( but still glad u shared. lol!!

hello. i wanted to share my story.. when i was 19 years old i was in a long term relationship with a woman..engaged and everything.. i met a man at work who really played me very well.. i ended up breaking.up with my girlfriend..because he convinced me that we were friends..and friends could have secrets..and secrets couldnt hurt ppl if they were kept..needless to say..i ended up with.chlamydia..and constant bacterial vaginosis symptoms which finally led to a pap smear that showed abnormal cells aka HPV...i was devistated.. i did not date for around 6 months..because i felt abused. and didnt want to infect anyone else.. but then i met someone my son's father..and he had herpes..and i had hpv..and we kinda just agreed to love each other broken and.everything. now I'm not angry at him..because we both knew the statuses...I'm only angry because the.commitment was.one sided.. so while i left the relationship now burned twice...he left with what he came with.. however..i don't feel as though it bothers me..just n the short time of reading ppls thoughts here.. for many reasons..one being that it wasn't exactly a surprise... and two being whats done is done.. now im awaiting my confirmation....my hsv2 test... it hasnt came back yet, but i know tthe symptoms from experience. i told my stepmom and she went crazy making me baby wipes with tea tree oil and chapstick because i get hsv1 too.. i feel supported from her in alot of ways.. but in a way i feel likw it IS an.EVERYDAY struggle..convincing myself you know im normal...im the same..etc.. but reading these stories and talking with ppl does help.. does aanybody else ever wish they didnt trust so easily tho???

hellooo!!! i can shed some light on hpv as I've read everything i can get my.hands.on... there are around 13 different strands that cause warts or cancer. the cancer one does not cause warts and vice versa. for u ihaving the cancer related strand just get regular paps. and cryo anything irregular. mine is the wart.kind. which sucks. pregnancy flares it.. I've had it for going.on four yrs..and only one wart break out.. it began with constant itching and urge to pee.. just remember...PAP SMEAR. Id say as often as ur.doc suggests. and as far as the herpes..im not new to it..per se...but it sucks too..however..i am surviving!! good luck

i tell ya..on the days when i dont want to get up..i get.up for my son..i know at the end of the day, theres at least one reason God gives me another day..

i am new to the itchyness and pain of these pesky blisters..as in literally just.got tested... however i have had hpv(genital wart kind) since i was 19 ill be 23 soon.. yeah it freaking sucks trying to tell ppl presexing it up..but for me it helps alleviate the guilt I'd feel if i didnt tell.. honestly..the oral herpes thing is more irritating to me even with the pain....CUZ I cant bite a sandwich...or eat that spicy dorito i so love..if anytbing that ppisses me off more!! lol i myself have a gay father. who is older..and I've tried to convince him that other gay ppl exist and that hes not alone ..so u arent either!! I've got a great gay friend at work I'd love to i.troduce u to!! u aren't alone!! not because u are gay! not because u r infected!! lol. im infected with multiple things. mono...hsv1 hpv causing genital warts...and awaiting ny hsv2 screening.. we can all be infectes together! hope this makes u feel better..just remember...just because ppl dont exclose their stds does not mean we r the minortiy,.

Thanks for the share.

@PositivelyBeautiful thank you again for those kind words..i know that this is a forum designed to reach out to h+ ppl but when i read about a woman who was both hsv and hpv positive i really wanted to join..because my.journey has not.been easy..and ive really felt alone alot because ppl around me just dont understand..i mean aquiring something like this is not accepted well..so im just trying.to learn to not let it define me ANYMORE,

i understand feeling the stigma but one way i look at it as this.. (and i havent got my.test results back yet so im speaking of hpv/genital warts) i always tell so therefore i refuse to feel guilty over something so small especially when the choice was theirs.. actually...i know ive given it to one person I've been with..but..the choice was his...and while i hate that it happened we were both adults and he had a choice and he chose to be intimate with me.. idk if that helps you or not.. i also can relate to feeling awkward about ppl cracking jokes. my two closest friends, one has hiv and the other a clean slate...i tend to feel more comfortable with the hiv+ friend because the viruses mever cross our mind..whild sometimes my clean slate friend will act funny if i offer her my drink etc.. i just fi.ished watching the intro video here..and its so true ..education is freeing.. i think noone should feel stigmatized by what their std chart shows...including my best friend w hiv..

@WCSDancer2010 Thank you for the information. I think this site will be a nice place to express my feelings. and not have to feel alone. i am.looking forward to everyone. and the positive upbeat energy. and.most importantly the.outlook that it doesn't define me.

mine dont look like "blisters" either..but they hurt..and it looks like a crack n the skin..with scabs

also i know i have hsv1 which doesnt bother me..so im not really sure why this bothers me so much.. maybe its the double whammy of it partnered w the hpv..

I've already went through cryotherapy..actually I've already come to.terms with the hpv. its really ththe hsv2 possibility. like i said i just got tested and havent gotten the results but seeing as i know what they look like I'm sure thats what it is.. i joined for the moral support and to know im not alone..

well..for me..i have hpv and awaiting my verdict about herpes..but either way..i've always told..the point of the matter is..give her the choice we never had..as long as its before the initial sex...then thats what matters.

hi.. i dont know how to start this talk.. other than to say that i have hpv and had genital warts..while i was pregnant..the pain i went through was awful... my son's father had herpes and he understood the rejection...how u are always outside looking n..so we chose to accept eachother.. well he left me..and when he left i was pregnant..but im pretty sure that's not the only thing he left..i have obvious herpes which i was just tested for.. but what i cant understanf is how or why it would remain dormat. for YEARS. its been since 2012.. i feel depressed all tge time..like who would ever love me now..i dont even love me..and i just saw a comment from a 31 yr old woman on here..and i decided this forum could help me.. my best friend is hiv positive..so she understands..but its a lonely road..and with herpes well they come and go n a couple weeks..but the warts..its yrs..and i just am really struggling..can anyone offer any helpful thought of encouragement???