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Thank you Sadpanda . I appreciate you sharing your story . He is currently living with my mom and I . I'm glad that I have my mom there at least . Sadly I have been in this lie thinking he would change . Of course he says he will change and seek help . Never does . My mom doesnt like him but puts up with him for me. Just everything has been so negative the last year . I dont even feel like myself anymore . I try and be strong for my babies and thats what keeps me going on days I feel like just crying. I hope things get better and one day I can be happy like you.

I would like to have a buddy I can talk to . I am a 25 year old female in the west texas el paso area. I need some support and would like to hear your story. Thanks

I have recently been diagnosed with HSV2 . I got my first outbreak in December 2013 but the doctor had said it was a severe yeast infection. I just had my first babies , twins this past December and afterwards I got another outbreak. I went to my OB and got tested. That's when I got the bad news. They said by the numbers I have had it at least a year, which explains the first outbreak. I had never had anything like that happen to me. I have never even had a yeast infection so when all this happened I knew something was wrong. The father of my children accepts it but our relationship isn't good at all. He has a alcohol addiction and anger issues. He is verbally abusive and can talk real ugly and be disrespectful to me. I'm already tired of it. I know me and him will not work out in the end. My babies don't need to see that type of anger or bad relationship. I just feel at the same time no one else will accept or what to be with me because of my condition. I have read on here the feeling that your dirty or no one will want you. That's exactly how I feel. I feel like my life has taken a bad turn for the worse in the past 2 years. I was in a loving relationship for 9 years . I had been with him since I was 14 but since I wanted to see what else was out there , thinking I would find better I broke it off with him. I did cheat on him once, which I regret everyday. I had three sexual partners after him including my babies father. I know who I contracted the virus from more than likely because I found out that guy was sleeping around with people at the same time. I cant help but feel like I messed up my life. If I would have just stayed with my ex of 9 years I wouldn't be in this situation. I think about him everyday wishing things would be different. I don't know how to move on. I am in this relationship I hate but I feel stuck since he accepts it. I feel like I wont ever be able to find love again and to actually be happy in life. I want better for my babies but I just don't know where to start and accept all of this.