mtngrl

So, I just had my first disclosure since I found out about my GHSV1 diagnosis. I was pretty nervous, I had practiced what I wanted to say but when it came to actually saying it out loud it was mostly word vomit and I felt so vulnerable. I tried to keep it short and sweet to keep myself from blathering on. He was very understanding, said he appreciated me telling him and that it said a lot about me and that he trusts me and still wants to see me. This was a few days ago, I was glad to just get it out of the way and in the back of my mind I knew there was a chance he might just ghost on me. However today he contacted me again reiterating how great it was that I told him and wanting to make our next date. Totally didnt expect it to go this well, however it turns out it was a good if not messy first disclosure. I truly believe what some people on here say that this type of thing is your wingman, I was in a dark place for SUCH a long time but it does get better to all you who are struggling.

@npm I am curious about @2legit2quit question as well

Thanks so much you guys for being there, I feel like this might happen tonight. Im trying to stay calm, Im sure it wont come out the way I want it to but I have to say something

right, I can only hope i can find the right words. im 30, he's 34

hey, thanks for replying. I would say I've known him roughly 8 months because of our friend circle. I know he's been interested for most of that time and while I would think he would know better than to say something in the case of rejection, it's hard for me to know that exactly. trust is a pretty heavy thing, it's hard for me to define because people are unpredictable and I've been wrong before. it's just added pressure on top of having to disclose for the very first time :/

so, my story isn't unique. I've always been careful and have slept with only 2 people yet I found out I have ghsv type 1. I haven't had any symptoms since the ob, which wasnt bad but I was very ill. it was a truly devastating and dark time for me but i've accepted it is what it is now. I've found myself in a situation where I'm going to need to disclose for the first time since I've found out i have this very soon to someone I've been seeing. that part alone is giving me anxiety I've been all over these boards reading stories and just trying to figure out what to do. what almost makes me more nervous is that this person and I have a lot of mutual friends, so it worries me that there is a possibility that word might get around about this. that would be incredibly crappy but I have to consider that. has anyone been in this situation or have any advice about disclosing the type 1 part? thanks, just needing encouragement :)