I always believed that god doesn't put you into situations that you can handle but I don't know of I can believe that anymore . I know I'm a strong girl but I don't know of I'm strong enough to handle this . It's to overwhelming . I feel like I don't deserve this . I know what I did was stupid and I regret it so much . The pain is unbearabley and there's nothing I can do about it . I'm just another statistic , young and dumb like the rest of them . I know my life isn't over but it sure feels that way . If this is what I have to look forward too then I don't have much too look forward to . The pain is excruciating makes me wanna cry all day . I'm disgusted with myself. I'm such a disappointment , to myself and others. Everyone thinks I'm such a nice beautiful girl but they would probably beg to differ if they knew the real me . They say they wont look at you any different but I know for sure they do . I have noone , I'm in this alone . My whole body hurts inside and out . I'm hopeless . Everyday tasks are like challenges to me now . I alwys feel sick and tears seem to be always stingy my eyes . I try to be happy but the thought haunts me . I really don't know of I can do this . Wish I could just disappear .
Will I ever feel the same ?