It might've been a good thing it took so long to get registered on here. If I was able to post a few days ago I'd be much more grim. I just don't know what to do. I believe my ex of two years had given it to me before we broke up a month ago. I'm a 29 year old guy that just wanted to find "the one" and have children, now I fear the odds are even more against me. It started with flu like symptoms and then the small outbreaks on my legs. I have ALOT of tingling / burning all over my legs, more outside the outbreak for sure.
I've been on anti-viral medicine for almost a full week and the physical pain is getting better but the physiological....god...it's brutal. I'm trying to look at the silver lining but it's so hard. I really am, what most would consider, a very attractive person. I'm in shape, I eat right, I have a good heart. Now I feel so disgusting and dirty. Every girl that ever see's me again will think I'm just a man whore. I can count the number of partners in my life on one hand. The social stigma around this disease is unbearable.
Thank you for this community. Thank you to the moderators here whose kind words to others has helped me already. If there is any words of encouragement or advice please give them to me. If there's anyone out there that was recently diagnosed and feels as helpless and alone as I do, contact me. I feel like I'm the only one going through this. I read the statistics but it doesn't help, I still feel like a leper. I've spent countless hours researching and reading this forum and it really has helped but I have such a long way to go. Does it ever get better?