Hi all!
I have known that I have H for about 3 months now, when I got the call I freaked out for a little then all my emotions went dead. I've tried to share it but then I realized I might have made a huge mistake in doing so, I told my sister and at first she was all "oh that's not a big deal it could've been worst" but her actions said otherwise she constantly made me feel like I was a pariah in my own home. This made me never want to share this with anyone again if my own sister can go from accepting to being cautious around me like a simple touch can spread it than how are others going to take it?
I'm also very shocked by my own lack of emotions towards it all, do I not care about myself enough? I don't know if it has to do with not being able to share it with anyone or just me suppressing my emotions (which I normally do I'm not really too emotional). I haven't had a full outbreak yet is that why I'm not facing this? Or am I too scared to acknowledge it?
But I also fee like I might have done so much research that it was overkill and that I might actually just be fine with it, I am not seeing anyone and I don't think I'll be ready for that step anytime soon. Every time I've gone to go get tested I've always been told there is no need to get checked for H if you don't show symptoms you don't have it WRONG (you'd think doctors try to help you even a little). I had to force the doctor at planned parenthood to have them give me a blood test and then bam the news came, I have yet been to another doctor or spoke to any doctor about having H I'm only 22 and I'm terrified that my parents find out through their insurance is that possible? (They really can't know for cultural reasons and I do not want to have to deal with that).
But ANYWAYS I am so happy to have found this site and I am looking forward to meeting and connecting with new people who can share their knowledge and I can share my support!!