It all started a few months back, I was fresh out of a relationship and was easing my way back into the dating scene when my friend suggested she introduce me to her boyfriends best friend. She told me a little about him and showed me some photos, even at a quick glance I was 100% in, he was HOT! The only downfall was that he lived in a different state. I still thought that it would be fun, even if it didn't really go anywhere. She told him about me, sent him my pictures and not even 5 minutes later I got a text message from him! I honestly thought that this was going to be nothing serious at all. We would talk, flirt a little and then it would die down, but our connection was insane. I had never felt this connection with ANYONE before, not even my ex boyfriend of 2 years! We we're texting, calling each other and FaceTimeing any chance that we got! We started talking about arranging for him to come down and vice versa. In the back of my mind I knew that when we met in person sex would be an option. My struggle was deciding rather I should tell him in person that I had an STI or if i should get it out of the way while we were apart! My theory was if it was something he didn't want to risk we wouldn't have to waste a trip and could end it there! I was having such a hard time debating when I should tell him. I tried seeking advice, but knew that I had to do what I felt right! I wanted to tell him over FaceTime, it was the closet thing to in person as we could get! One day he said something via text (I can't really remember what it was) & I thought to myself, He needs to know, I need to tell him now, and so I did! I was so nervous, the fear of rejection didn't scare me as much as the fear of losing this amazing person! My heart was pounding and not even a minute later he responded with "Im glad you told me, but that changes nothing about the way I feel about you or the way I look at you"! I don't wanna say I was shocked, that was the type of response I was hoping for, I was so releived! I proceeded to tell him that I wanted him to take time and think about it! He, responded with "whats there to think about? Your my everything and I wanna be with you no matter what"! I've never felt more wanted than I did in that moment, here is a person who is truly in it for me! He doesn't care about anything I bring to the table, as long as I'm there! I wanted to share my story to bring you hope, to shed the light on the fact that there are people out there who will choose to be with you despite the fact! Give them a chance to know you, to see the person that you truly are! If they choose not to be with you still, then they are simply not the person for you, but don't give up because there is someone who is going to love you through it all, and that my friends are the type of people we want and need!
xoxoxo