WCSdancer2010 thanx for reply..at the mo I can,t contact this bloke(I want to hire a hitman) gu in uk is sexual health,the doc I saw last week was great,she was more concerned about my mental health than if have h,,we talked a long time and told me over and over that if it is h it will be ok we will deal with it...the future of my children is the main thing that's tearing me up,i,m so scared of passing it to them even tho i,m told i can,t..this is killing me i,m in a real dark place at the mo and if the test comes back pos i can,t see it getting better..