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Well I have been gone a month and 6 days. I wanted to update everyone, I just needed time. So after the initial post, I went right into counseling. And later he joined the sessions. I learned the fear people go through is bad, however it does not condone what he did. The thereapist is working on him and helping me through the hurt and now trust issues. I was tested.and I tested negative. The doctor said he had been taking his medicine everyday. And now I Understood why certain days or week he was "sick" and avoided me in the bed room. Again , he was still wrong. In time I believe we can work towards healing and get back on track. He still is as always a fantastic dad to our children that won't change. The betrayl is something that needs to be addressed long term. But I am at the point in therapy of acceptance. The lie was not ok but I no longer feel devastated if that makes any sense.

Lol thank you for the laugh. I hate that he did that to you. Before this bomb, he's a great father, he provides our needs, loving and affectionate. We are in our late 30's. We always knew we we're ready to settle and we we're happy with one another. I did what you said. And I understand the fear that people can have. My heart hurts for them. I feel betrayed. I feel that why didn't he trust in me enough to know I could of dealt with it? Im scared to death I may have it and though it's not as bad as people think, it's the fact that he didn't give me the choice to take the risk. I feel torn inside. One side of me thinks this is a big betrayal. This isn't something little, he hid something that he has for life. Id almost rather he cheated. On the other side, I love him so deeply that I want to hug him and hold him. But I'm so so hurt. It means the world you are talking to me thank you.

Thank you so much. I'm crying my eyes out. I'm lost. Your right for me it's the betrayal. I wanted the chance to decide. It wasn't fair

I really don't know where to begin. I've been with my man for 4 years we have two beautiful little girls together. While I his sock drawer I found medicine. It was for herpes . I called him up immediately and demanded the truth. He said he has had it for years and was scared to tell me. 4 years. I feel betrayed lied to. Hurt. Devastated. He didn't afford me the chance to make a decision to stay. He put my health and risk our babies health . I am going nuts waiting to get tested and I'm so scared I have it. This is not what I asked for. What do I do? Where do I go from here?