Lol thank you for the laugh. I hate that he did that to you. Before this bomb, he's a great father, he provides our needs, loving and affectionate. We are in our late 30's. We always knew we we're ready to settle and we we're happy with one another. I did what you said. And I understand the fear that people can have. My heart hurts for them. I feel betrayed. I feel that why didn't he trust in me enough to know I could of dealt with it? Im scared to death I may have it and though it's not as bad as people think, it's the fact that he didn't give me the choice to take the risk.
I feel torn inside. One side of me thinks this is a big betrayal. This isn't something little, he hid something that he has for life. Id almost rather he cheated. On the other side, I love him so deeply that I want to hug him and hold him. But I'm so so hurt.
It means the world you are talking to me thank you.