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OK. I will do that. I took a bath with epsom salt and coconut oil and it seems better. I was in a lot of stuff yesterday. My pressure tank leaked so we were cleaning up water in the basement. I was wearing jeans that got wet... who the heck knows. I still get alot of fear for like any little itch or mark "OMG - it's back". I did go and get tested and looked at again. All was clear and I didn't have any other STDs so that is good. The whole thing was/is pretty scarey and I'm really glad I found this site. Thanks for the super fast response.

i haven't been here in a while I healed up ok. Haven't gotten rid of the cause of my heroes yet.... The guy.... I have an outbreak question I have a rash that just started on the backs of my thighs. Little red bumps they kind of itch. I haven't changed detergents or anything like that Might that be an outbreak and should I call in one of my prescriptions for whatever that antibiotic is?

The nerve stuff is making me mental. I keep looking for more bumps and stuff cuz I have the tingling going on down there and in my legs. And in my butt. I wish it would go away. Ugh

I did fall down a couple times in the first couple weeks. It was like a shooting pain and then bam. My legs would give way. And every once in a while I would check to make sure my butt was in the right spot. I feel better just knowing someone else had such similar experience. Hugs.

Omg! I was hoping to find a new person so I could share! And here you are. You described exactly what I went through but I had the sores on the inside and outside. It was pretty horrible. And I was diagnosed with hsv1. The tingling is the neuropathy. 2legit explains it very well. I am in the 4th week and finally close to feeling normal. I still have some of the tingling once in a while and right now I have some dryness and itching. Hang in there! You are doing great. I already ran the gamut of anger and resentment with my partner when really he probably just didn't know or didn't pay attention. I hope you're feeling better very soon!

Well I had an ok week. Today I have some discomfort like dryness and some itching. But there is nothing there. No rash. No redness. No swelling. I haven't shaved there in a month so I could have irritation from that I guess The fatigue is a lot better too. This the first day I didn't have a massive headache either. So I'm getting back to normal but it has taken a month. I still feel somewhat dirty. But it's getting better. I don't know about the self worth thing either. I think I had those issues long before I got herpes. So it's taking me a while to get better. That's a bummer. And I wonder if some of it is in my head. But whatever. It is what it is. It's better than it was so I'm grateful.

Yup. I bet another week and I'm back to normal. And I have been journaling too. I guess I thought I addressed my self worth issues and I have not. Or they ever really go away. I don't know I'm going to find posts of new people with bad outbreaks and see if I can help them.

Yup. I read the is he a fuck yes. And now I read these that is some harsh truths but truths one the less. I get it. More and more gets revealed. And I get it. As far as the ob. The bitch itch is almost gone thank god! I don't know what was worse. That or the fricking sores. Geez Louise. But I feel like I almost have my lady bits back. Yay me! And the rest of me needs a complete overhaul. I lost myself somewhere and it's becoming more and more clear and sitting in church today it struck me... I would like myself back goddammit!!! I'm going to get me. Turns out H is an opportunity for me. How about that?

Ok. Well it's good to know I'm not loosing my mind. I'm on like my 5th bag of Epsom salts lol. It's just two spots specifically but mother of pearl!!!! Nights as well have chicken poms. I thought about soaking my stuff in calmine lotion lol. And you're right. I'm projecting. I'm home on a Friday wearing his big ass pajama pants so I can 'air out' while he is out partying. I sat and felt sorry for myself all night and ate the rest of the Ben and jerrys lol. I am feeling tons. I think tomorrow I will do a little workout and see if it boosts my spirits some. I'm really glad this site is here bi have done a lot of reading tonight.

Well I'm finishing the third week and I have one sore left. Two sort of scar looking things and a cut from where I itched in the night. I get these bouts of itching that are just crazy. Like I could scratch my skin off. I'm still sitting in Epsom salts and using the bactine. It could be from hair growth I guess. But it's itchy. My other situation with the partner hasn't changed much. He is who he is. I don't have too much hope at this point. I think he is staying out of guilt and because we have a vacation planned for the end of March. I don't know. He says he loves me and is t one to run at the first sign of trouble. I'm pretty down right now. I feel like the whole thing should be done and I still itch so I'm bummed. Is that normal to itch three weeks out?

Yup. Like something is moving in around in there. It's very bizarre and I have to be careful to not grab my own ass at work. They already think I'm weird. Lmao. It may be a pulled muscle from walking like a dork for almost two weeks and sitting like a dork. Two sores left and the one on my upper thigh that we weren't sure about. I slept well. I'm feeling pretty good and I have 1.5 more days of the pills. And it's so funny that you two say that. My friend was over last night with marriage problems and some she created for herself and I said to her... That guy is showing you who he is. THAT is what you are getting? Do you want THAT? And here I sit being asked the same questions. I have a lot of thinking to do. I think I already know. I just am filled with fear. Fear of being alone. Fear of not being loved because I have H. And this is really bad... I have fear that he will move on as if nothing happened and be with someone else and I will be alone. And that's just not fair.

Nah. It's been 18 years. I hate to say never but I am active in a 12 step program so I a constantly reminded I am one of those that just doesn't mix with the drink. I have experienced deep depression in sobriety. Not having an anesthetic against emotional ups and downs is a bummer but I have been blessed in the fact that the compulsion was removed. I wish this herpes shit was that easy. I am in week three and I feel pretty good I think I have about three sores left. And the weird neuropathy and it's in my glutes. It keeps feeling like somethings is there so I grab my reared and there is nothing but my growing ass lol. And I think I have one or two of those fissures you talked about. Sort of like a paper cut sort of. I don't know if they are rub marks from wearing pads for so many days in a row. And the itching ensued last night and a little tonight. Crimes! That was bad. I didn't itch in the beginning. And no fatigue. I worked all day and felt great. I am using the Vaseline trick and that is helping a lot. And the patch on my leg is almost gone. I don't know that I can fault him for this if it indeed was from long ago. But I really don't know about him cheating on me. I just don't know. I think he had it and this was just really unfortunate.

I just finished what me and the doctor feel was week two. I got it two Saturday's ago. He was drinking last night by himself so there was a lot of mushy texts and bullshit guilt texts. I had taken my kids with my sisters fsmily to a fun restaurant and game room and was therefore wiped out so I just went to bed. I truly believe all of his responses are bullshit and he had t and knew it and because no one else prior to me ever accused him he never thought twice. And it would just be grand if he actually went and got tested and it came back negative and he would unleash that on me. At one point last night he spun it that way. Then it seems like you are not interested in me. Blah blah I think the pills give me poop problems which made my hermoroid show back up and that is messing me now too. But all in all I did some stuff today and had minor pain and just fatigue. I'm soaking now and gonna be done for the night.

Thanks! Next week will be 18 years. Well he drank last night and then got all meloncoley. I don't know how to spell. I'm going to tell him again today about what you said that it's likely he has it in his mouth. I got another big as bump on my underpants line. Yesterday was the first I wore clothes all day. Is that normal. It's big. And I have itching I didn't have but I wonder if it's from hair growth maybe? Or the neuropathy. So I'm in that freaked out stage where I feel something and I'm like omg it's never going to go away!

Thank you for that information. It gives me hope. However I don't think I'm emotionally ready to date right now. I clearly have a resentment and some anger issues to deal with and have to adjust to living with herpes.