Hi..I'm 18, and recently starting getting a bunch of painful sores in my down there area.. There around my butthole now too, which they weren't before. They hurt so bad, and I'm always uncomfortable... I even have random cuts down there like I've been ripped? I know it's herpes... The more I read about it, I'm so scared. I cry every time I go to the bathroom or bed. I just don't know what to do, I'm so scared to go to the doctors im beyond embarrassed... I can't tell my mom I couldn't.. I feel like everyone would look at me so differently. It's really affecting me emotionally and physically. I can't take it, like I really don't know what to do... I try to use the bathroom as little as possible because it hurts so bad every time I do, I really want to die but I know I can't just end my life because of this...