StillBella

I'm still taking my meds but I went out of town and forgot them and my monthly started so I'm guessing from my lapse in taking them on top of my hormonal change it welcomed the OB. Before this one my only OB was my initial one in January. This was a good lesson to learn, I won't forget to take them daily. I also tested positive on the swab but not in the blood test, I haven't tested again because I'm sure it would test positive now.

I take valacyclovir 500 mg although I tried to get my doctor to give me 1000 mg but he said I don't need that much. I also take Lysine, Zinc and Coconut Oil pills... I didn't think they were working so I stopped taking them for awhile and BOOM an OB! Believe me I know exactly how you feel... My biggest fear is passing it to my boyfriend. I was embarrassed to tell him about my recent OB but he is understanding while I'm over here stressing out more trying to make sure it doesn't spread. You will have sex again, you're still valuable please don't ever think otherwise :) Honestly I thought about hiring a lawyer to see if I could get my ex's medical records and sue him for not disclosing but I didn't pursue it out of fear for others finding out. He denied having it and claimed he was going to get tested but instead he disappeared and blocked my number. So many times I wish I could rewind time but now I look at this almost as a blessing in disguise.... a select few know and they still love me, I found this forum with wonderful, helpful people and it removed a lot of stress from my life believe it or not... I just hate the constant reminder of my mistake. Things will get better for you! Does your suppressants help? One thing that helped me the most was personally talking to someone who lives with it. She's married and just had a baby, her husband doesn't have it and they are on cloud 9. That let me know I could still find love and I did. Don't give up PatAnn! The best has yet to come

I recently had a successful disclosure in May. I was so scared to tell him because I was recently diagnosed in January and I didn't know where to start, I'm still learning my symptoms and my body all over again on top of trying to explain everything to a potential partner. I waited until we were in a close setting and I asked him about his deal breakers in a relationship which led to a discussion about keeping secrets and then I worked up the courage and told him about my HSV-2. I wouldn't change the way it happened because it was everything laid on the table and I got to see his real reaction, he didn't even flinch he leaned over, kissed me and said it didn't matter to him because he really liked me. Good luck on your disclosure!! It's good that you made a real connection first, the rest shouldn't matter :)

Hi PatAnn! I'm new here and recently diagnosed in January after my crummy ex unexpectedly popped back into my life and left me with a lifelong parting gift in the form of HSV2. I understand your fear about sharing diagnosis with anyone because of the shame you feel... In April I met a really great guy, instant attraction on every level except I kept telling myself he wouldn't want to be with me because I'm "damaged goods". But on the contrary, one day we were having a deep conversation and I worked up the courage to tell him about my diagnosis after lurking on this site for awhile and reading other successful disclosing stories. To my surprise he didn't even flinch when I told him, he said it didn't matter because he really liked me. Our sex life has been amazing and he has been truly understanding with everything, like right now I'm unfortunately having my 2nd OB since my first initial one in January that lasted until the end of February :( But he still kisses me and hugs me even though I'm the one that feels weird with having it. You can and will date again!! This isn't the end of the road for you, I promise you there is someone amazing out there who will love you flaws and all. Just make sure you truly get to know the person before disclosing and if he's genuine and sincere it won't even matter to him.