califlwr

Hi, I am looking for an H-Buddy. In a very emotionally abusive relationship as he threatens to tell " the truth" about me if I leave relationship. I am afraid, because I have a successful business and only he and the person who gave it to me 5 years ago. I went in anti-depressants for first time last year, due to suicidal thoughts. Meds helped a lot, but I still feel alone, isolated and trapped in this relationship. It feels like he can treat me anyway he wants, because he has this hanging over my head. Also sex-drive at ground zero, related to just feeling like I am " dirty" and could never have a normal, healthy relationship anyway. I have lost trust in faith in people around me, which again has affected ability to form friendships. I would appreciate any encouragement. Thank you so much...