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@JeffH I plan on it. I also feel like informing my doctor that he should read up on it

@JeffH it's amazing how my doctor didn't want to retest. I'm going to ask my dermatologist. If it was that low it should be a standard to retest. I don't understand doctors nowadays.

So now that I've done my fair share of reading, I'm thinking about getting another blood test done and then following up with the western blot. My results came back as 0.93. I'm not sure which one it was(I'll have to double check). Anyone else have test results similar to this? I'm not getting my hopes up, but I'm more curious to see what another round of results would come back as. Also, I was quite devastated when I found out my diagnosis, but I have to say things are getting better. Holding my head up high and thanking my lucky stars that I found my way to this site and the wonderful people on here :-)

@SPATX919 I don't think he knew. I think he may have thought it was something else like dry skin. I asked him to go but he won't so I'm not going to push it. I filled the prescription just to have. I figure if I do have an OB I'll just take them. I did make sure to call him immediately when I found out. He had the right to know. At least I just spit it out. I know people are saying how difficult it can be to tell people. Not gonna lie, I was sweating and covered in hives when I told him haha.

@SPATX919 my doctor didn't even want to give me antivirals. I actually had to ask him for it. I'm pretty sure my boyfriend gave me H because I was tested before we met and I was negative. I'm definitely feeling super self conscious and I know it's because I was recently diagnosed. I feel like taking the pills just to keep things at bay, but I keep reading conflicting things about it.

Since getting my diagnosis, I literally just stare at myself in the mirror and try to wrap my brain around how anyone would find me attractive now. My boyfriend brushed it all off and wants to have sex every 5 seconds and I'm just not ready. Honestly, I'm not sure I'll ever be ready. I feel like he's asking every minute and not respecting my wishes. I'm not sure how else to say I'm not ready. He doesn't understand that I'm asymptotic and that I have no idea if I'm having a "shedding day". He doesn't understand that I currently hate myself and I want to just crawl into a hole and stay there for the time being. I currently feel like my body is toxic and I don't want to expose him to anymore of this. I don't know. I don't know how to handle this situation. Any thoughts?

@Feli71 all the more for people to get tested. I was terrified to ask questions on here, but I had to get over it. I want to know everything possible and I want to hear people's stories. I think that's my way of coping. It's nice having people to turn to on here, considering how scary it is at first. I'm going to keep saying it. So glad I found this little corner of the Internet!

@Onedayworthit I'm thinking about taking it. It can't hurt, right? I would like to try and follow the diet to see what happens out of curiosity.

@littlelibra haha me too! I turn to Mexican and Thai when I'm upset. Dont even get me started on hormones. I feel like that itself is a whole other uphill battle lol

@HikingGirl there's gotta be a way to change all of this. People need to know. I mean it's too late for all of us here, but thinking about my friends kids growing up and getting incorrect information is terrifying.

I've been reading up and I keep seeing thing for a high lysine diet. Has anyone chose to follow the diet and cut out any food that may be high in arginine? What worked for you? What didn't work for you?

@HikingGirl I don't understand why they don't make it part of the panel. It would save so many people from hurt and frustration. people need to be educated. I don't know about you, but I was always told that if I wear a condom I would be okay. I feel a little stupid now

@GotWhat haha releasing a fox into the hen house. I should do it.

@HikingGirl it's really funny that you ask because two of my doctors wouldn't do the test. I acuwent to my pc and told him I wanted it and he wrote the script for it. Because I showed no visible symptoms they figured I was fine.

@HikingGirl I know! I just turned 29 and I never thought it would happen to me, but it did. I've having a lot of issues for the past two years. From bladder infections, to stones, to yeast infections. So I know the pain. I was getting yeast infections so often that I had them test me for hiv several times. I think my mom being there when they called with my results helped. It lifted a weight off of my shoulders. I get anxiety just thinking about how I would have told her. I'm so lucky to have her. She's in mom mode and has been non stop researching. I told her there is no cure and that I appreciate everything she is doing. That we just need to deal with it. I'm glad I can talk to her but at the same time it's frustrating because she doesn't understand where I am coming from. I'm just really happy that I found this little place with wonderful people who get it. It's making the process a lot easier. I feel bad because I just joined, but I just want to keep posting things and seeing what other people think. It's like my little blog.

@HikingGirl I have hsv2. I've never had any outbreaks or symptoms of it. Which is odd considering I'm always stressed out and I have no idea what sleep is haha. I can't rely on my friends. They are like a bunch of old wash women. No secret is safe with them. How about you? Which type do you have?

@optimist I'll have to check it out. Thank you! @HikingGirl I was a little taken back, but then I realized that most people are really dense and don't mean to be rude. I'm just going to avoid it and not respond. Thank god I can have ear phones in at work so I don't have to listen to it haha.

@optimist can you recommend any good reads on H? I already purchased Terri Warrens book

@optimist I didn't even know how to respond to it. It was more along the lines of calling some disgusting and being very judgemental. The down fall of working in an office with all women. I need to learn how to take things like that with a grain of salt and just laugh it off. It's true with the whole stigma part of H. I wish people could see that it could happen to ANYONE at ANYTIME. Like I said in my earlier post, I'm so happy that I stumbled upon this little community of compassionate people. Thank you for your input :-)

@hippyherpy I usually do but I'm just extra sensitive right now

After being diagnosed, I encountered some friends who where making jokes about people who have herpes and I wanted to know how people deal with this sort of thing. I personally kept silent but on the inside I was beyond angry and hurt. How has everyone else been dealing with situations like this? I'm feeling very vulnerable right now since my diagnosis is very new and I'm still in shock over it.

@HikingGirl I literally just ordered her book lol. hea never been tested and when I called him to tell him everything he freaked out (as usual) and said it's impossible. I told him to go and he said it's on his list of things to do(which means it's never going to happen and I need to let it go). Yesterday he tells me that he hasn't had a cold sore in 11 years. I got tested before we met because of the boyfriend I had before(drugs and cheating). I was cleared of everything. I don't want to blame him. But I think he is being really stupid. He says if I have then he definitely has it and that's it. It doesn't matter and it's not a big deal. Right now I think it is a big deal. Maybe he has it and knew and never said anything or he just didn't know he had it. And right now I just want to take care of myself and make the necessary changes in order to be healthy and make myself feel like a human again. I'm so glad I stumbled across this site. I really hope that I can make some life long friends on here cause I really don't have anyone to talk with besides my mom. Unfortunately my friends are very judgmental and I couldn't talk about this with them. There was a mother book I ordered what the heck was it called. I know it's by Dr. Sheila Loanxon. It god good reviews

@HikingGirl I'm still trying to wrap my head around my boyfriends reaction. He's acting like a I have a cold and that's just it. The whole thing is just odd to me. Reading everyone's stories has really been helping me a lot. I still have a lot of questions and I'm not sure who to turn to. Do I go to my gyno or my dermatologist. I think the worst part is that since I've never had an OB, how will I know when it's okay for me to be intimate with someone. I really appreciate your response. I felt really weird posting. Thank you so much for the encouragement <3 ::hugs::

I'm 29 and from New Jersey. How about you?? And absolutely!

@gem8516 I don't even know how to process it. I know life isn't over but right now it feels that way. I've been crying on and off for two days. I'm sending love and hugs your way. I know you need it just as much as I do <3