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Hi Dave! Thanks for sharing the video! I have been doing a lot of reading on the subject and I feel a little less disgusted with myself but the stigma from the uninformed really hurt to hear. I am beyond sick with listening to the negative comments. My now ex has shown his really awful side and has been literally taking me down through there in spite of what I am showing him. Thanks again.

Hi Lara93, Thanks so much for replying. I am crying because my bf reacted exactly the way I thought. I explained to him about the risks and showed him the research but he refused to listen. Because we are so sexual, I wanted to tell him immediately. I felt it was the responsible thing to do. The only other person I told was my sister and she being the deeply religious person that she is promptly told me I was disgusting. So far I am getting two responses from people when the subject is brought up. the first is disgust and then the other is indifference. I know its not the end of the world, my brain, the research done and reading others stories like yours are inspirational but my heart and mind is saying get real. My family will not understand just as my I'm assuming now ex boyfriend, didn't. In this ridiculously large city you would think considering the fact that this virus is so common, more folks would be aware of it. I pray that I will be where you are in a few months. Right now, I am just too raw.

I found out yesterday that I have herpes. My gyno was so nonchalant about it she kept trying to convince me it was no different than saying I have a common cold. According to her, 6 out of 10 patients in her office have the virus. That doesn't make me feel better, it only confuses me so much more. I haven't been able to talk to anyone. In the past five years I have had sex with 4 guys and all of them were protected. The guy I am currently with now has been my sole partner for over 4 years and he tested negative a few weeks ago when he went to the dr. I feel so dirty and grimy. Both me and my bf are extremely hypersexual and have some kind of sex on average about 3-4 times a day.The last time was on Wed.He wanted to have sex today but I pushed him away. I'm afraid. I don't want to touch him, kiss him or even be held. I don't know how or when I was exposed because before moving here I had another long term monogamous relationship and before that I was married. Now I feel lost. I will tell my bf tonight and I already know he will break up with me because he is a hypochondriac and terrified of anything medical. At this point I feel that I have lost all chance at love and romance. What person will want me after this? I am not a bad person. I love sex but I don't sleep around. I can't even cry at this point. My heart is broken into a thousand pieces. I feel like I have a emblazoned sign on my chest declaring me unclean. I just want to scream. Being honest at this point I am so beyond numb that my faith is gone. I have just had too many problems in my life and now this nightmare is like being sentenced to a life of loneliness. I just want to hide. Please someone respond. I am so alone right now.