Hi all.. I'm currently breaking up with my partner who gave me this H, he says he didn't know he had it, we were both diagnosed a over year ago .. I was EXTREMELY ill when I first contracted it, add item to hospital with a temperature of 41 degrees & after passing out woke up in resuscitate unit, due to temperature escalation. The initial outbreak was horrendous & lasted 8/9 weeks. I was totally devastated. I'd had breast cancer befor I met this man & had hoped my future was slightly less stressful than this new 'diagnosis. I'd been on my own for 15 years bringing up my children (no sexual contact) prior to this man I met just over two yrs ago. I'm heartbroken at the moment, (also uncertainty of moving on alone with this). He doesn't want to go he's now begging to keep the relationship going, but, from the start he was checking-out local young girls half my age on Facebook, lieing about it, hiding his phone (still does) wont reveal passcoads ect, also 'gawps' at wimin every where we go I was horrified to see that he'd watched porn all night long while I was in hospital & (accidentally he claims) went on a hookup site. I've been putting up with this behaviour for two years, but for this last year I think I'm afraid to reject him from my life as I now have this disease. He now claims that he 'may' have a problem with porn, he watches a lot, I didn't know this & now feel totally 'not good enuff' ect ect. My self-asteem is at rock bottom. I did get upset about the porn revaluation recently & we argued, resulting in him saying "its better than looking at you". I can't tell you how violated I'm now feeling. He's also constantly shouting at me in anger outbursts, I'm in absolute bits, I've asked him to leave a few times due to bad behaviour but he then takes an overdose & goes of in a ambulance. Or self harms by cutting himself, he claimed he can't live without me, & that he loves me dearly, & that all this is connected to the fact that he was raped repeatedly at 13 by a neighbour for 3'years.. he's now started counciling but I still don't feel he will ever fully respect me or any relationship properly due to the conduct I have seen.. he seems slightly obsessed with wimin/girls/females. I now feel violated I honestly shouldn't have trusted this man with my hear or life,, he seemed so kind. He recently also said that he wants to stay with me as I've now got it , he meant that he'd be long gone if he hadn't got it. I've done sooo much for him. He's totally ungrateful. I feel sick that I caught this from such a selfish self absorbed pig of a man, who's sneking around behind woman's backs in so many ways is obviously second nature to him, I feel so humiliated & my heart is Brocken, I miss being a with someone but am terrified of moving on. I can't shift it either, I have had this current outbreak for 5/6 weeks really badly.. I've hardly got out of bed for 3'weeks now. Feeling isolated, dirty, frightened of being alone ect.. unfortunately I do love this man. But I'm ignoring his pleas. I just want a some respect.. any advice welcome good or bad.. God bless all .Xx ..