Mias

So very scared about disclosing. I have only dated one other guy since I was diagnosed. And we had sex with out having sex if you know what I mean. It has taken me a long time not to feel dirty about this. And he just made me feel dirty I am seeing someone else now and we are starting to move towards intimacy and I'm scarred to death to tell him. But I feel if he is going to leave it's probably best to tell him in the beginning. I'm starting to have feelings and Iim afraid of getting to close Its so crazy all of this stuff I feel like this big H is like having a way to say maybe I just have to find the right guy the one who is really going to care about me Still really scared