Hello I'm 19 yr old male and I have had H for around 3 months now. It's been a rocky road so far.. Depression, fear, shame, lots of tears! But slowly coming around and starting to feel better. I now find myself at this stage of moving on, Trying to create a life with H and put it behind me. Iv been reading the discussions and they are really helpful but I think all I have read are from women. Any advice? This is abit about my situation anyway.
It's come to the point now where I have been alone for 4 months. I came out of a 7 month relationship and ended up getting the H on a Ibiza (get over her) holiday... Great plan! Not!
I find it hard to start again.. I want so badly what I had before. I look at girls on nights out as pointless attempts. I know full well I can't take it any further without getting into a deep relationship but that's hard enough to find on its own. I know I can put her in my position with one mistake. I feel trapped by this. Iv had to turn down girls because I'm thinking long term and worse case scenario.. It's so frustrating having to think of excuses for why I won't sleep with her and lying about the last time I had sex so mates don't question me! Great example my brother was seeing a girl and she had a very attractive sister who was interested.. She wanted it but when I was asked why I wasn't making a move I slipped out "I can't"... That was a tricky one lol
Is there many younger girls that are mature enough to accept this? Probably not. If things go wrong after a relationship will she use it against me? If I tell her will I get a straight rejection? I know it's life.. But don't know how to cope with awkward, dangerous "moves". Feeling like I couldn't take the embarrassment after spending time with someone.
Iv looked at valtrex and that is expensive! Is that 1000mg a day or multiple? Does taking 5 aday have the same affect as 1 everyother? Is there cheaper options.. More effective options? What's your experiences? Cheers!