I’ve been there. Gave it to someone I hoped to spend the rest of my life with only to have them reject and hate me for giving it to them. We ceased communicating. It hurt for years.
The only encouraging thing I can say to you is what my doctor said to me 40+ years ago before I had it and the girl I was dating told me she had it. It frightened me. I knew almost nothing about it. I sought his advice. He said to me “It’s your choice but for myself, herpes isn’t a reason I would not have a relationship with someone.” I went with that. Yeah it’s a pain but there are much bigger hurdles to overcome in a relationship than herpes. I think it’s an early test of the strength of the relationship.
Don’t fret too much. You’ll find someone who loves you enough that something like herpes is nothing more than a trifle. I did.