Lonelygirl88

Thank you for replying to me. Do you have kids? I am so glad that you found someone!! If you have never had symptoms you should do a western blot test. You could have had a false positive test.

Man I hate the waiting game... So I just got blood tested again at my 8 weeks after exposure for hsv2. It is again neg. Which I am excited about but of course people say well it can still be positive... I just hate waiting. I hate having this pit feeling in my gut about the what if it is positive.. I hope this negative means that I am truly negative.

It was nice to read that. It's crazy how many people are living with this and not even knowing it. I blame it on the health departments not adding it to the main panel to test for. I can't even believe why Hospitals don't check automatically when pregnant. When I found out about this I was panicking and called my office that checked me while pregnant and asked if they checked for it and she was like no, only if you had a history of it... I was like well how the hell would I have known unless I was freaking tested. Ugggh it made me so mad. But anyways , you are right, this doesn't define who we are. I am trying to accept it. I don't want to live miserable for the rest of my life. I want to be happy again. I want to continue having a successful life. I want to go back to school and build up in my career. I want to be happier with my child... I don't want this to control my life. I want to be more like that girl that goes around talking about her ghsv2. Have you seen her on you tube. I think she is only like 25. I can't remember her name but she just openly talks about her situation and she feels so free. I would love to actually talk to her in person. I wish I just had someone physically here to talk to.

I am right there with you. I am a mess and I think I am becoming obsessed too. That is great you found someone who is accepting. I fear that I will not be so lucky but I hope I will be. Don't know why I am even wanting it. I have a child and I am more afraid for her then some guy. I don't know how to make myself happy again. I'll get happy for like a sec and then I look at myself and just get right back to feeling miserable. I wish I could go back to not even knowing I had this just so I could feel normal again. I am 30 as well and I just feel like my life is over. I know this isn't a death sentence and I should just go back to normal like others say, but... Damn.. I just wish I could go back and change this shit.

I just found out I have hsv1 genitally. Well shit I have no if I have it orally too. I have never had a lesion on my mouth but who knows. I don't know how long I have had this... But i am miserable and very depressed. I have a 3 year old and I'm so scared about spreading it to her or if I have had this during birth and didn't know it. I am scared no one is ever going to want me... I just feel so worthless and so disgusting. I dont know how I am going to mend from this.