Hi guys, I just found out Tuesday of this week that I have genital herpes. I am a divorced woman of five years and will soon be 52 years old. I have had four sex partners in my life and apparently one of them was a very bad mistake. My physical symptoms are much better now, which is good, but I woke up this morning in tears. I feel like the part of my life where I will have a companion or spouse is over now. I have two grown children, and two grand children and they have their lives. I raised them to be very independent. The problem now is I don’t feel like I’m worthy of being dated or pursued. I really want love and companionship in my life. I just feel like going forward I’ve been tainted. I realize also that sex really is not the most important thing in life but it does bond a couple. I just woke up feeling that no one will ever give me a chance if I tell too soon and if I wait I feel like that’s deceitful.
Until now I’ve been mainly focused on the physical symptoms, which were horrible, and now I’m just left with the emotional devastation. Any insight on how to deal with this would be great. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading.